Let the hands and feet do the talking

the language music

2010-05-09T17:14:00.004+08:00

Music,

Like a language, has no fixed permutations or formula that tells you how exactly it should be like;

Like in a language, for example, English, the basic building blocks are given as words, alphabets and sentences, but there is never one definite way for any person to respond to anything that another person might be saying:

Take a simple "Hello, how are you?" as an illustration. A few basic, mood-dependent responses to this would be "I'm fine, thank you", "Good, you?", "Can't be better!", or possibly a "Terrible day today...".

Sure, there are rules that we have to abide by, and that's where the English teacher comes in, to teach your verbs grammar nouns adjectives and whatnot.

Can you imagine constricting yourself to a single fixed answer to every single question in the world, like in a script, or a pre-planned template?

Same for Music.

Just as you think that these responses to the simple question may be all reflex actions possibly all second nature like at the back of your hand, do not belittle them as there is one very important thing to note, that they do, in most, hopefully sincere cases, embody our wholehearted emotions that we feel deep in our heart, as little as it may be. Take a few minutes to think about it.

When was the last time you cried because someone scolded you?
When was the last time you shouted at someone because of something stupid he/she said?
When was the last time you comforted someone with a broken heart?

All the various emotions that we feel with our heart...
Why are we so eager to express them out in words and actions, yet so conservative to do the same, when it comes to our Music that we are talking about?

Call and response, fundamentals of jazz.
Why is it that only jazz players are confined and bound to this "rule"?
Doesn't anyone here except me feel absolutely constricted and robotic, trying to play the same thing over and over again, without any variation, no soul, no feel, and absolutely no musical value?

Why do people see the need to play the exact same thing they play every time they play a song?

Why do song covers even EXIST in the first place?

Please, my friends, do not let anyone dictate over how you must play.
Let me repeat myself.
Music, as a language; Speak as you wish.

2010-04-22T23:34:00.001+08:00

Love is overrated.

and thats the last

2010-01-30T14:17:00.008+08:00

This is why scarcity exists.

I want:

~~A watch - tag heuer kirium~~

A watch case - to hold 3-5 watches

A harddrive - 1-2 terabytes

~~A tennis racquet - babolat aerostorm 4 3/8 gripsize~~

A drum kit - DW collectors series rainbow wood finish with mini toms

A handphone - blackberry / iphone

A bass&amp - epiphone jazz bass & Ampeg bass amp

~~A music CD - toe new sentimentality and for long tomorrow~~

2010-01-17T15:34:00.003+08:00

Realistic set of New Year's resolutions:

1. Cut down on drinking.

2. Spend more time with family.

3. No more matched grip. Strictly traditional only.

4. Have enough discipline to keep routine practice.

5. Get an organizer. And keep my schedule organized.

6. Stop eating so much fried food and junk food. Less snacking. Less tidbits.

7. Run at least twice a week.

8. Keep face clean as much as possible.

address

2009-12-10T22:18:00.012+08:00

31 Kingsmead Road

http://www.gothere.sg/directions#:31%20kingsmead%20road

By Bus/Cab/Car/Bike

-> Coming by Bukit Timah/Dunearn road

Stop at the bus stop at Coronation Plaza/opposite Coronation Plaza OR outside HCJC/opposite HCJC.

From Coronation Plaza, walk alongside starbucks (left side of coronation plaza) and walk into coronation road. Follow the road all the way in till you come to a cross junction with a signboard stating "Kingsmead Road". Follow the road in. It's the third house from the right.

From HCJC, Walk into the Duchess road, sandwiched inbetween SPC and HCJC. Follow the road all the way in, till you come to a cross junction with a signboard stating "Kingsmead Road". Follow the road in. It's the third house from the right.

Buses available from these 2 busstops: 171, 67, 700, 700A, 77, 852, 960, 961, 961, 970, 170, 174, 66, 151, 154, 156, 157, 74

-> Coming by Farrer Road

Alight at the stop right outside farrer market/opposite farrer market, consult your bus driver about this.

While FACING the busstop( outside farrer market) , turn RIGHT and go around the bend into empress road. Walk a bit further up and you should see International Baptist Church on your right, and Church of St Ignatius up ahead.

Turn to your left on reaching the T junction. You should now be along King's Road, walk down until you see a bend on the right side going into Victoria Park Road. Take that road in. Go all the way up the "hill" till you come to a cross junction. You should see a signboard stating "Kingsmead road". Take that road in and descend down the "hill". It' is about the 6th house on the left, keep a lookout for it.

Buses available @ Farrer: 855, 961, 961, 48, 93, 153, 165, 174, 186

By Car/Cab/ Bike ONLY
Also *accessible* by bus and walking, but please be forewarned, the walking distance after alighting from the bus stop is not to be trifled with.

-> Coming by Sixth Avenue

Turn into Jalan Haji Alias. Follow the road in all the way until you come to Coronation Road West. Turn left. Go straight along the road all the way till you come to a cross junction with a signboard stating "Kingsmead Road" Turn right into Kingsmead road. It's the third house from the right.

-> Coming from Holland Road

Turn into Coronation Road West and follow through ALL THE WAY. Follow the rest of the instructions from "Coming by Sixth Avenue" above.

By MRT

The nearest MRT to my place would be Newton MRT. From newton MRT, (facing the exit) turn left at the exit, and take 174(or 171 was it? Either way only one of these should be there) from the bus stop and alight at Coronation Plaza. Consult the bus driver regarding this.

From there, take instructions from the above "From Coronation Plaza" section.

AS A LAST RESORT if you still have difficulties finding the place: Call 98765262 and look for Jia Huang.

That will be all,
Cheers.

asdsd

2009-10-18T01:15:00.000+08:00

Hiromi Uehara :)

QQQQQQQQQQqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqmotha

2009-09-14T00:59:00.002+08:00

Reminder to self:

Get a haircut tomorrow before book in
Bring protein powder for ws
Bring drum sticks and pad for jem
Bring music theory books for dom
Upload songs into ipod
Fully charge ipod and handphone

$$$$$$$$$$$44

2009-09-06T18:15:00.004+08:00

What i did with this month's $600 payslip.

Return Jason $300
Return David $10
Return Shao $35
Return Jus $16
Return XY $7
~~Return JG $30~~
Pay for shipping of earphones at stereo $50
Pay YZ for hippocase and JH cables $150

Grand total left to last the month after clearing all debts: $2

Debts,debts and more debts.
Oh boy i love my life.

Toe

2009-08-15T18:02:00.003+08:00

I posted new videos of (as usual, awesome) Toe's songs from youtube :)

I highly recommend you to just listen to the song and skip watching the video part. It's nausea inducing.

Reality Strikes

2009-08-11T16:29:00.002+08:00

Reality Strikes

So i had a little 6 day break from NS. And suddenly i realize how much i really miss and relish my days of freedom outside of camp.

Yes i know, im whining and bitching about NS again sigh.

"Just 2 years right? It's only about 2% of your life if you think about it"
"Just grit your teeth and get over it"
"Already lao jiao already what, get used to it lor"

True, i'm already coming to my 8th month serving the army. But why is it that every single time i have to book into camp, that afflicting feeling of derangement still comes striking into my heart? I'm supposed to be getting used to it by now isn't it?

"Suck it up", they all say.
Ive been trying to. I really have been. Trust me on this.

But the thoughts of having to go through another 16 months of this bullshit? Arrgh.
I swear i shouldn't have been born a Singaporean.

This is suffocating.

earphones

2009-08-02T22:54:00.004+08:00

By the way can anyone lend me spare earphones/headphones for a month or so starting next week?

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-02T14:47:00.002+08:00

Do you know how absolutely vextatious and exasperating it is to pick out your phone from your pocket and realize its out of battery when you are out of your house?

And to aggravate matters:

1. I was in the middle of Orchard.
2. I have yet to meet up with my friends.
3. I do not remember any of my friends' numbers by memory.
4. I do not save any contacts in my SIM card
5. It's virtually impossible to find another person with the old nokia phones which i use for NS with the old batteries around anymore.
6. Even if it was possible, it would be so damn embarassing to try to ask for one.
7. Me and my friends have yet decide on a set venue to meet up with except the vague desceiption of "meeting in town".
8. I was expecting a call from another group of friends to discuss our plans to meet later in the night
9. I was expecting another call from this guy i got accquainted with online to buy something from him, which i have already CONFIRMED the goods from him
10. I was supposed to be on "standby" for NDP duty, which meant that my phone has to be on 24/7
11. I NEED constant communication.

Nuff' said.

!!

2009-07-20T15:04:00.001+08:00

HELP! IM TURNING AUDIOPHILE!

z

2009-07-12T12:39:00.001+08:00

This is frustrating. My weekend just passed in a flash. Again. What's with this 2 years of bullshit that we have to serve? Total funking waste of time. Like as if "troopers" really make a difference in wars. So what if we have 100,000,000 soldiers or something? We all end up as cannon fodder anyway.

Actually, correction on my previous statement. As if the whole army shit makes a difference with all that nuclear warfare stuff now. All it takes is one nuclear warhead to wipe out this shitass "red dot" on the world map, which is probably an eye sore to everyone else anyway. Military deterence? Pfft.

Whats the point if we are being freaking forced to serve the army and "train up" to become combatants when our mentality isn't there anyway? Theres no loyalty or patriotism involved in here, just pure slavery to the goverment.

Honestly speaking, i can safely say that more than 70% of the people in NS now wont even bother fighting for the country in the case a war really arises. Why? Because we have zero conviction. We DON'T want to fight. We DON'T want to serve the army. Seriously who the funk would anyone go out into the battlefield as a bloody trooper knowing that at the end of the day you will end up blasted into several pieces by landmines / bombs / airstrikes / missles / artillerys / your own platoon mate who sucks at shooting and misfires into your face? Oh. I missed out something. You get commemerated at the end of the war in a "cool" memorial with your name together with a hundred gazillion other names as ~~"brave men who became target practice for missle strikes"~~, oh sorry i meant, "valiant fighters of the war"

Sigh i dont feel like talking about this anymore. In any case i believe that making people do things against their will dosen't work out and never will. Effeciency and quality is definetly compromised that way when people are made to do things they never volunteered to do in the first place. It's like telling yourself to marry someone of the same sex; You probably can do it, it's within your power to, but if you think about it, why the funk would you want to? See? By the way, no offense to the homos here.

Earth 2012

2009-05-02T00:43:00.013+08:00

Earth 2012

"Nasa report : 2012 - Doomsday ‘Croissant Fireballs’

COME 2012, the world could be knocked back to the horse-and-buggy era. That is when, according to a recent Nasa-funded report, gigantic fireballs of plasma spewing off the Sun’s surface could hit Earth, knocking out our power grids. A prolonged power outage would lead to the collapse of critical infrastructure worldwide."

"NASA Announces 2012 Destruction Probable

http://science.nasa.gov/headlines/y2007/14dec_excitement.htm?list951772 "

So you think this might all be some sort of silly joke or stupid gimmick that people came up with to attract attention.

"How is it possible that the earth is going to end in 3 years from now?"
"Im only 18 years old and still a virgin. The world cant end yet."
"I haven't made my first million dollars. This can't be true."
"Who came up with that shit? Ridiculous."

Yeah, go ahead and continue thinking that way you little cynics. Go ahead and be paranoid of all your own feelings, be skeptical of every single concept or theory that comes under your scrutinization. Critisize the world. Throw in a pinch of sacarsm. Way to go.

Be that way, punk.

But guess what? What if this is for real? Have you ever thought about it all you bummers out there with no purpose and meaning in life whatsoever? What are you living for?

Honestly, arent we all just a bunch of shallow minds inhibiting a planet we do not deserve right now? Its no surprise the average human only uses 1% of their brain.

Just in case you think this little kid here talking to you is just blabbering unsupported rubbish with no evidence about doomsday, get your facts right:

First of all, we are talking NASA here. NASA can lie, taken of course as they are no less than humans with the occasional thirst to make some headlines out on the news sometimes, even if its just fabrication. But if they can post stuff like these, and let it go mainstream all over worldwide media, there has to be at least some truth in it. Plus, their reports really do seem authentic and logical. Do spend some time off to read them, and you will understand what i mean.

Secondly, Mayans predicted this. Read up on them here:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mayans
http://www.circlesoflight.com/reality-creation/world-end.html

The Mayans had predicted every major world event including bird flu, 7/11, every single eclipse that occurred, and now, the 2012 fireballs.
For more info, read up yourself. If you are too lazy to, too bad.

Some people might start to ask at this point, "But what of God who will save us?"
I believe ive written at least a few times about religious issues, im not going to write up too much on this part, but i just want to take this time to briefly reaffirm my stand. Read older posts for more information and a more detailed take on my stand on religion and God.

I'm not an athesist, but i can't say im a strong believer either. I guess you could call me agnostic. I believe there's a universal God, a God who created this universe we are living in. This one's pretty obvious if you ask me. Its impossible to have everything in the life cycle fall into place so nicely just like that.

I do not believe in a certain religion. I believe that all religions ultimately point to the same God. Why is that so?
What differentiates an athesist from any other person who believes in (insert a religion here)? Simple. One seeks God, one dosen't.

In a nutshell, i believe in God, but i just do not suscribe to a certain religion.

To the believers, i suppose we have a mutual understanding that there can only be one universal God, no more no less. And if that is so, why should this God who created us, deny any mortal of his/her effort put into trying to search for Him? Acknowledgement can only seem mandatory.

Jesus Christ, Allah, Buddha, or whatever God names you have, they are all but words invented and used to label and name the peoples' various Gods. God shouldnt be objectified or personified, or should i say, CANNOT be.

I believe in God and im grateful for my life being bestowed upon me. However, i do not believing in maintaining a "Connection" with God. I know this is going to sound like a bold statement, but im going to say it anyway: Try putting your shoes in God for a moment and think. If you were God, why would you create this planet filled with homo sapiens just so that they can "commune" with you all day and annoy the heck out of you? Why would you create them just so they can become your "underlings" who have to abide to a prayer schedule?

I know all that talk about "No one really knows God" thing. But honestly, if you can't answer these questions, you are going nowhere anyway.

Perharps we humans should just be living life as it is, solving problems and obstacles in life with our given minds just as intended, and die the way we should anyway.

So much for that God talk, basically the message im trying to put across is, theres no reason for God to save the world from impending doom. Everything has comes to an end, not necessarily just good things.

Now, what exactly is our purpose in life then? I believe everyone has a different meaning to their own lives, different callings. Most importantly, no matter what each person's "calling" is, we need to have a key objective in mind, and also, live life to its fullest.

For me, playing and enjoying music is mine. Everyone has an inborn touch for music, no matter the extent. It exists from the earliest of mankind to the latest of civilisation. It's a universal language. It's the closest thing we humans have to connect to nature, as well as a great tool for bonding between humans, even before any form of culture, language or civilisation appeared.

To be able to play music for people, impart this skill to others, let the world hear and witness the wonders of music, i feel more than blessed.

Rockin' always,
jiahuang

qwe

2009-02-06T23:18:00.001+08:00

Dear jiahuang, please do not switch off your brain.
At least not totally.

NS

2009-01-08T23:10:00.001+08:00

Goodbye Civilization.

australia

2008-12-21T23:38:00.005+08:00

HEY HO I JUST FOUND OUT THIS POST HAS BEEN HIBERNATING IN MY "DRAFTS" FOR AGES. SO HERE:

So the SIA flight from Sydney back to Singapore wasen't exactly the best flight ever...

BUT the trip wasen't that bad... well actually it was, im just trying to console myself.

Okok. Fine. To be fair, it wasent THAT bad, just some areas that needs improvement on, thank goodness.

Oh well, to be expected from a stupid shitty guided tour.

Well im going to write a review on it anyway. Wow-wee anti climax.

ASA's Guided tour to Gold Coast and Sydney (7D5N)

CONS:

1. Tour guide was a total fucking piece of crap.

And im not even going to restrain myself to cut out the expletives cause thats just what he deserves.

First of all, he HARDLY EVER SPEAKS, secondly, when he opens his mouth, he talks about the local time, where we are going, what we are eating for lunch, hows the weather, what we are doing tomorrow, when mr bean is going to stuff a cake up his nostril, BUT NEVER ANYTHING ABOUT HISTORY OR INFORMATION ABOUT THE CITY WE ARE IN.

Heres an example of what he would say:

"Good morning.(long pause) Did you remember to take your handphone,(long pause) pager,(long pause) ring,(long pause) wallet,(long pause) watch or any valuables out of your hotel room? Today the weather is quite hot,(long pause) thirty one degrees(long pause) celcius. We are going to port stevens today. Today's lunch will be chinese food at a resturant. We will be going back to our hotel at about 5+ today. Tomorrow we will be doing ...."

*proceeds on to translate into broken(understatement) chinese.*

Also, HE FREAKING LEFT US ALONE ON OUR SO CALLED "FREE AND EASY" DAY and just let us go off with just the bus driver. He said he had "work to do". Oh wow, so taking care of your tour group as a tour guide is less important work than __________.

And he didnt give a proper acknowledgement or dismiss us properly at the end of the whole thing. Three cheers for tour guide from hell.

2. Food was atrocious.

Well well well. So we were in AUSTRALIA. Whats the first thing about food that comes to your mind when you think AUSTRALIA? Thats right, famous fish and chips. But what the hell, guess what? 50% of our meals were chinese food. :) Yup. Absolutely cool stuff. Eating chinese food in Australia. And it dosent help that they taste worse than the chinese food in Singapore.

And what about that legendary fish and chips i always dreamt about eating in Australia that beats fish&co's fish and chips hands down? I never got to eat it.

3. Hotels were rather bad.

First 3 days, we stayed at this "resort" that somewhat resembled our down town east one room chalets. Sucked so damn badly. The room was relatively badly furnished (compared to other hotels), shitty facilities, bad TV reception, dirty beds. Well the hotels did get much better the other 2 days.

You know the chinese proverb, "xian ku hou tian"? Well guess what? I don't buy that.

4. Arrangement was screwd.

First 2 days we had 2 theme parks CONSECUTIVELY. Day 3 to some fruit farm, days 4, 5 & 6 all had like cruises? The stuff gets repeatitive and boring after a while.

5.Damn tour wasent cheap.

And we had to put up with the above points n0. 1-4. Enough said.

PROS:

1. Theme parks were thrilling as hell.

If you are a thrill seeker and still young (at heart), Gold Coast's theme parks are definetly your kind of place to be.

Ranging from 6x loop rollercoasters going at F1 speed to 39 storey free fall drops, these rides are bound to blow your head off/ make you pee your pants.

2. Chance to see the MTA (Miss Teen Australia) Girls on cruise.

But that was probably a one off freak occurance that they happened to be on the same cruise as us.

Hot stuff, unfortunately most of them are taller than me. Oh well, moving on.

3. Nice beaches and ocean scenery that you will never find in Singapore.

Tranquil waters, smooth white sand, bikini babes, surfers, plunging waves, seashells, colourful pebbles and all with a scorching sun hanging overhed. Piece everything together... viola!

4. Nice clothes to buy. Probably cheaper too.

As with all other western countries, fashion sense is always somehow better in these countries, thus better choice of clothes to buy from. I had 3 friends asking me to help them get clothes for them from specific australian brands just before i left for my trip. Says alot huh?

And now with the 1:1 (used to be 1:1.3) exchange rate, we Singaporeans get more spending power in Australia :)

As we can see, gold coast and sydney are actually very nice places to visit, if not for the negative external factors - mainly all related to the damned tour agency, thanks so much ASA, for screwing up my holiday.

I highly recommend these places to visit for a holiday, BUT please, for the sake of love for yourself, PLEASE do NOT travel with ASA.

Thank you.

Oh and did i mention i had the worst flight ever so far in my entire life from Sydney back to Singapore? The plane was shaking for the whole duration of 7 and a half hours. And there was a sudden dip halfway through. And it didn't help that i was halfway on the way to the toilet when i flew; literally could feel both my legs off the ground. Even the air stewardess beside me got shocked big time. Thanks SIA.

Guess what? This post was stuck under "drafts" for so long i forgot what i wanted to continue saying. Oh well...

rockin' always,
jiahuang

fuck NS

2008-12-10T01:59:00.000+08:00

Fuck NS.

All i want for christmas is

2008-12-09T01:53:00.006+08:00

All i want for christmas is...

1. Get out of NS free card

2. New ipod cause the LCD screen on mine spoilt. And im running out of space. (40 gb)

3. New handphone. Im still stuck with old Z610i (in extremely bad conditon)

4. Leather wallet.

5. Sunglasses.

6. Head prestige tennis racquet.

7. A simple-yet-sleek (white) watch. Non-metal ones please.

8. A NICE BEANIE FOR NS.

9. OR A NICE HAT.

10. Some good cologne or perfume so i can book out of NS in peace.

11. Big stubby 3mm picks and pick holder

12. An e.guitar bag with nice paddings.

13. Guitar strap

14. New pair of shoes/sneakers.

15. Boss AW-3 Dynamic Wah pedal

16. Boss BD-2 Blues Driver pedal

17. Boss DD-3 Digital Delay pedal

18. Boss FZ-5 Fuzz pedal

19. Boss TR-2 Tremolo pedal

20. Ibanez white PGM3 guitar

21. Fender red standard american stratocaster guitar

22. Gibson white les paul studio guitar

23. Hercules guitar stand

23. Maybe i should just delete everything and put $5,000,000

rockin' always,
jiahuang

lol wtf

2008-12-08T04:20:00.004+08:00

Bat Country

I decided to do this lame quiz i found on cheryl's blog since im so bored at 4.23am and i cant seem to fall asleep.

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged as to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Wake me up when september ends - Greenday

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
One in a million - Guns 'n' Roses

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
I Love You - 王若琳

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Call me when you're sober - Evanescence

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Plug in baby - Muse

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Bold as love - Jimi Hendrix

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
The dance of eternity - Dream theater

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Life Got Cold - Girls Aloud

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Escape - Metallica

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Time and space - Hiromi Uehara

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Miserable at best - Mayday parade

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Shadow of the day - Linkin Park

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
All you need is (7 inch) - Blindside

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
IT'S SAD - HYDE

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Lovin' you - 土屋アンナ

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Finally - TRUSTcompany

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Sing that song - Guano Apes

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
愛一個人 - 陳慧琳

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Violent Mood Swings - Spineshank

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Projektion - Astreal

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
The boys of summer - Ataris

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Bat Country - Avenged Sevenfold

lol its amazing how almost everything made *some* sense. im off, goodnight.

rockin' always,
jiahuang

sick

2008-12-01T22:50:00.005+08:00

Heart throbbing in brain filled with worms squirming around

Remember how your head felt after you finished doing 500 maths questions on the eve of a major maths examination? Im feeling the exact same thing now. Except i havent been doing maths.

And i couldve sworn i saw it coming too, there were a million tell tales staring me right in the face today.

I woke up in the morning, tried to play the guitar, but realized i couldnt focus at all, my mind just felt all dizzy fuzzy. I had to drink 2 cups of water in the morning cause my whole throat and mouth cavity was feeling super dry.

Right, so i left home for raffles city at about 11.15am. Went shopping around for xmas stuff with jaron jolene and cheryl. Pretty phenomenal, its the first time i went out on a shopping trip without splurging on useless/unnecessary/unpractical stuff. And i felt AMAZINGLY restless OUT OF MY HOUSE today. No lame jokes, no stupid word puns, no weird conversation, no nothing. Hardly anything came out of my mouth today.

And i didnt even have appetite for dinner sigh.

I went down after that to yishun to collect my CE-5 pedal. The headache started to really get me from then on, i was sweating profusely 8pm at night. Well although i was wearing a shirt with jeans and listening to a7x, i dont usually sweat much, if not, none at all, even in that kind of outfit. And when i said profusely, it wasent exaggeration.

So here i am sitting infront of the comp still contemplating about whether to take panadol. I remember that piece of news reporting that panadol stays in your body for a LONG time, which supposedly has some bad side effects, so yeah.

I guess ill just drink more water and sleep early, as the doctor wouldve said it.

rockin' always,
jiahuang

Stupid Quiz

2008-11-26T00:03:00.004+08:00

I was held at gun point and forced to do this

Cheryl

1. The person who tagged you is?
Cheryl

2. Your relationship with her?
I'm her father

3. Your 5 impressions of her?
1) Weird
2) Inquisitive
3) Crazy
4) Very Weird
5) Fickle minded

4. The most memorable thing she had done for you?
Um, nothing that i can remember.

5. The most memorable thing she had said to you?
"I am officially intimidated" Does that count?

6. If she becomes your lover, you will?
Find a new one

7. If she becomes your enemy, you will?
Kill Danny

The person who made this quiz cant count and left out 8 and 9.

10. What is it that you want to tell her now?
You will lose the next Taboo.

11. Your overall impression of her?
Please read point number 3.

Jolene

1. The person who tagged you is?
Jolene

2. Your relationship with her?
My illegitimate daughter

3. Your 5 impressions of her?
1) Bimbo
2) Cute
3) Cheerful
4) Caring
5) Emotional

4. The most memorable thing she had done for you?
Head massage while i had a headache

5. The most memorable thing she had said to you?
"My heart ping ping piang"

6. If she becomes your lover, you will?
Make her bake cakes for me everyday

7. If she becomes your enemy, you will?
Steal all her soft toys.

The person who made this quiz cant count and left out 8 and 9.

10. What is it that you want to tell her now?
You owe me cheesecake!

11. Your overall impression of her?
Please read point number 3.

12. How do you think people around you feel about you?
What kind of question is this

13. The characters you hate of yourself are?
Don't know

14. The characters you love of yourself are?
Don't know

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Myself

16.For people who care and like you, say something to them.
Congrats you just wasted 5 minutes of your life

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you wish to know how they feel about you.

1) Cheryl
2) Jolene
3) My mother
4) Lee Kwan Yew
5) George Bush
6) Obama
7) Osama Bin Laden
8) Saddam Hussien
9) McCain
10) Jessica Alba

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
My mother

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
Transvestite

20. If no.7 and 10 are tgt, will it be a good thing?
NO. No 10 is attached to ME.

21. What is No.2 studying about?
How to bake tolberone cheese cake for me :)

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
20 minutes ago

23. what kind of music band does no. 8 like?
I have to say BLACK metal.

24. does no.1 have any siblings?
I think so, not the same mother though. Im her father remember?

25. will you woo no. 3?
YEAH

26. how bout no. 7?
SUICIDE BOMBA

27. is number 4 single?
Hes my gay partner

28. what is the surname of no.5?
I think its Wussy? Oh Washington sorry.

29. what's the hobby of number 10?
Making sexy movies

30. do no. 5 and 9 get along well?
Yeah. Birds of the same feather flock together. Same for old farts who are about to bite the dust.

31.where is number 2 studying at?
ryan institution (RI) HAHA!

32. say something about no. 1
something about no. 1

33. have you tried developing feelings for no. 8?
No thanks

34. where does no. 9 live?
In my ass

35. what colour does no.4 like?
Purple

36. are no.1 and 5 best friends?
Yah

37. does no.1 have any pets?
Her (STUFF TOY) dog named Danny

38. is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
number 10 is

39. what is no. 10 doing now?
Trying to get me out on a date

rockin always,
jiahuang

j board

2008-11-17T20:13:00.000+08:00

The J[age] Board

Yay i have sucessfully custom made my very own pedalboard! Got the materials from various places, and finally i have constructed it and tested it out today!

Ill let the pictures do the rest of the talking:

Basic plank of wood

After paint job

After applying velcro:Rubber pads below to prevent slidingPutting everything together!

Yup thats it, you can order a J board for me at $80, just drop me a message at 98765262, or msn me at dum_pikachu@hotmail.com .

Comes with complimentary 7 feet velcro to stick to the bottom of your pedals, Delivery to your house can be arranged at an extra $20, if not, deal at my convenience.

Extra velcro/ daisy chains/ patch cables can also be ordered with each pedal board, at extra cost of course. Just remember to add it in details when ordering.

rockin' always,
jiahuang

zzz

2008-10-31T12:40:00.004+08:00

Got over it. Really.
Thanks.
Im back

My life is so fucking screwd.
Its a total screw up, the whole damn thing.

Ive just received news that im going into enlist into national service tentatively on 12th december. And hell im not even going Tekong, fucking monointake into armour straight away.

And why? cause im not a fucking Poly or JC student. Not anymore.

Thinking back, i realize how my whole life leading up to this shit has been a total fuckup.
Theres just too many parts of my life i totally screwd up on in retrospect.

I wish i can just press the "delete" button to all these deadweight reminissions.

PSLE was a miracle, i dont deny it, i gave up hope upon receiving a 190+ PSLE prelim score, i didnt do squat about it, and somehow managed a 250. Ok.

O levels was what i deserved. 35 points prelims. Studied like fuck after that. Managed a 12 pts. Fair enough.

J1 promos was a disaster. Messed up badly for mid years, studied damn hard for promos. To no avail. Still fucking had to retain in the end. Maybe its retribution. And dont ask me why i had to ace all my H1s and 1 H2 econs while failing the other H2s. (promotion criteria was 2 h2 passes) Fucked up.

And i dont even understand why i chose to go PJC. u know i really regretted that decision damn much. totally fucked up school. totally regretted not taking sajc's offer to dsa into their band and getting into their science stream. And even if i didnt dsa i couldve at least made it into their arts stream with my o levels score. Sigh.

~~I dont even know why the fuck i chose to go science stream. More options in university? My fucking ass. I suck at science. I excel in arts. End of story. Fullstop. Why the hell couldn't i see that?~~

& dont even get me started on why i chose to make the switch to MDIS. Another bad decision. What the fuck is wrong with me? why did i get so easily psychoed by my cousin's father into the "faster education route"? God fucking damn it, U WANTED an A level cert Jiahuang.

And now that i finished my dip from MDIS, i realize at the end of the day im going to go SIM to study my degree (with self consolation that the external degree that LSE offers at SIM is actually as good as local unis) and SIM dosent recognise MDIS certs. Great. Now i (might) need to retake my diploma first year and get 2nd year into SIM degree. Yay me. Im wasting alot of precious time of my life.

I feel stupid, like some foolish loser. I wont deny it too, im probably stupid. Yeah just look at me now, spouting profanities like no one's business. Uncouth and rude shitass right here thats right.

I had enough of that "You're smart, you just need to be more hardworking" shit. Fuck it all. Lets just leave it as im stupid.

And i remember telling other people how they shouldnt call themselves stupid cause it will result in a self fufiling prophecy. Guess what? Fuck it. Maybe i am stupid to begin with.

Yay they abolished PW and PAE the following batch too. Yay i couldve pretty much done much better for promos if i had at least some fucking time to study for mid years while in PAE and not screwd it up so hard that it had to pull down my boderline passes for promos to a fail.
Yay Yay x 100.

Fuck it.

I tried to be strong, tried to face every obstacle and tribulation in life bravely. Tried to tell myself its all ok, tried to take everything in stride. Tried to tell myself every screwup is just a calling to take a different path, tried to tell myself every door closed is another door open.

Well its definetly not ok. I cant handle it anymore.
Yes. Im losing confidence in myself.
Im losing my clear-headness.
Im losing my cool.
Im losing charisma.
Im losing sanity.
Im losing myself.
U know what - i dont care anymore.

Great. I so look forward to the rest of my life now. I dont even know what to think.
I just hope there are like a FEW NICE people in my camp who can actually speak english. Ill be damn contented.

Oh and "YAY" again, i just remembered i had a dream of myself learning driving in NS. And now im being posted to Armour unit. Dejavu.

I thank Whoever gave me my life for putting that drumset into my life. Well even though i paid for it. But yes im grateful for it. I feel so much better after playing 2 straight hours of intensive drums (and i got like 5 blisters on my palms) - for the first time in my life. Sigh again, i realized after i enter NS i can only play

Really felt good to vent it all out. Although i still feel that cancerous resent etched in my heart, slowly spreading like slow poison all over my body till its totally paralysed and overwhelmed by the emotional tumours.

Well w/e. Im out.

not so rockin anymore,
jiahuang

Shopping list

2008-10-29T21:30:00.005+08:00

Shopping list

Booyah! Recently ive been having so many things in mind that i WANT (want does not necessarily mean i have the full capability to buy everything on the list) to buy in the near future. So yeah, just in case i forget any of them, i have decided to congregate them and compile them into a list:

Note: items are held in no particular order of importance or priority, i am just regurgitating the ones that come to my mind first.

Dear Santa Claus please give me these for christmas:

1. Pearl (Export series hopefully) 8" & 10" tom add ons $350

~~2. Saddle screw for my guitar which dropped out est. $5~~

3. Magnus' boss turbo distortion pedal DS-2 and Zoom G2.1 multi effects pedal $200

~~4. Guitar cable $35~~

~~5. Guitar stand $30~~

6. Oakley sunglasses est. $400

7. Zildjian constintople hi-hats $600

8. New handphone please est. $500

9. Head prestige tennis racquet est. $200

10. Roland HD-1 electronic drumset just so i can play at night $1,600

11. And i owe my friend money. $234

12. Fender 50s classic Stratocaster red est. $1,500

13. Ultimate ears™ earphones est. $400

14. Some new good speakers. $100

15. Another floor tom est. $200

16. Perharps a new ipod est. $400

17. Acoustic simulator pedal AC-3 $100

Yup thats about it.

Now give me some good advice on which ones i should try to get first, and which ones later on, and which ones i shouldnt be buying at all. All (constructive) comments welcome.

Scarcity - Unlimited wants, limited resources. See it now?

rockin' always,
jiahuang

Wow-wee-wow

2008-10-20T04:24:00.007+08:00

JH's Pwnage Playlist

I uploaded a whole playlist of songs to the music player above woot .
Some 40 of my favourite songs from various bands artists and genres - now with shuffle mode too!

Here is the list of songs:

Lost Prophets - The Fake Sound Of Progress
The Used - Buried Myself Alive
Lostprophets - Shinobi Vs. Dragon Ninja
Lost Prophets - We Still Kill The Old Way
Kim Sozzi - Break Up
Guano Apes - Open Your Eyes
+44 - Cliff Diving
Alkaline Trio - Time To Waste
Breaking Benjamin - The Diary Of Jane
Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out
Muse - Map Of The Problematique
Shiro Sagisu - Storm Center
Dream Theater - Honor Thy Father
Guano Apes - Dick
Saosin - I Can Tell There Was An Accident Here Earlier
Avenged Sevenfold - Sidewinder
The Offspring - The Kids Aren't Alright
Dashboard Confessional - Vindicated
Funeral For A Friend - Walk Away
Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
Finch - What It Is To Burn
Finch - Letters To You
Blink 182 - Stay Together For The Kids
All-American Rejects - Dance Inside
Jimmy Eat World - Pain
Mayday Parade - Three Cheers For Five Years
Hoobastank - Inside Of You
Boys Like Girls - Hero / Heroine
Adema - Freaking Out
Coldplay - Clocks
Paramore - That's What You Get
Muse - Assassin
Muse - Time Is Running Out
The Used - The Taste Of Ink
Avenged Sevenfold - Afterlife
Ludwig Van Beethoven - Moonlight Sonata Mvt 3
Taylor Swift - Love Story
Avenged Sevenfold - Almost Easy
Mute Math - Reset
Mute Math - Typical

I had initially planned on getting a new blogskin too, but i figured out there will be many things to clean up and configure again if i were to switch skins. Once again, laziness got the better of me. Again.

Oh ya! I got a new cymbal! 17" Istanbul Mehmet China cymbal. I kinda regret not getting the 18 or 19 inches one (another deciding factor was also cause 19 inch costs about $100 more than 17) cause after bring back the 17" and trying it out with my drumset it sounds a little... too bright.

I havent had any pictures of it yet though... maybe ill post some soon haha.

Yup.... thats all, now sit back and enjoy the music.

rockin always,
jiahuang

Angels and Demons

2008-10-06T20:56:00.006+08:00

Angels and Demons, by Dan Brown
of religion, science, unbreakable codes, mystery, and clever twists

Just recently, ive taken this sudden interest into reading books. Call me a "late bloomer" if you wish, maybe, i still remember the days during primary school when all the studious kids were reading books in their free time while i stood and wondered how the hell they actually managed to pull it off, staring at pages and pages of words without leaving their seats or even flinching.

Well i do now, i guess. Its better that way anyway. At least now as a "late bloomer" i can actually understand and absorb the story better that the language used is actually within grasp. No to mention also the literary devices used , as well as the other litreature present in the story.

Ive just finished reading Angels and Demons by Dan Brown, it took me just one and a half day to finish the book. I must say this was the first book that i just couldnt stop reading halfway through, or at least i didnt want to, until fatigue got the better of me last night at 4 am.

So there were many religious references made in the book, somehow i felt a strange sense of.... familiarity to myself, questions and issues that i had about spirituality myself, but unable to properly elaborate on them, or venture further into. Simply put, the book almost became my bible for the duration i was reading it. Well then, ill be pasting some of the interesting points that the book had mentioned here, lets get started:

1. Religious Code of conduct (pg 132)

"The bible, the korean, buddhist scripture... they all contain similar requirements - and similar penalties. They claim that if i don't live by a specific code I will go to hell. I can't imagine a God who would rule that way."

Religions who go around telling people about how they should be living their lives, if not risk going to hell, this is it, it just dosent work, God put human beings on earth with the freedom to implore their own world, if everyone had to live only by the way God had already intended, then why on earth would God want to create mankind? So that He could marvel at his own.... pets?

2. Creation of man (pg 133)

"When you lie out under the stars, do you sense the divine? Do you feel in your gut that you are staring up at the work of God's hand?"

Gut is the word. Both literally and metaphorically. Those long intestines in your body, together with all other marvellous organs, if not God, who created them?

3. Generally, all Religions point towards the same direction (pg 133-134)

"Religion is like language or dress. We gravitate towards the practices with which we were raised. In the end, though, we are all proclaiming the same thing. That life has meaning. That we are grateful for the power that has created us."

"So you're saying that whether you are born a Christian or a Muslim simply depends on where you were born?"

"Isnt it obvious? Look at the diffusion of Religions across the globe"

"So Faith is Random?"

"Hardly, Faith is universal. Our specific methods of understanding it are arbitrary. Some of us pray to Jesus, some of us go to Mecca, some of us study sub-atomic particles. In the end we are all just searching for truth, that which is greater than ourselves."

I found this... intruiging. This was one question ive always had but found no answers to. If i were not born in a (Insert a certain Religion) nation instead, but instead born in Africa, or Egypt, where totally void from religion and possible obscure from the rest of the world, how on earth am i supposed to come to know about (Insert a certain Religion) and eventually make a choice to accept (Insert a certain Religion) or not?

4. God as our creator, our parents. (pg 401)

"Do you have children, Lieutenant?"

"No, signore."

"Imagine you had an eight-year-old son... would you love him?"

"Of course."

"Would you let him skateboard?"

"Yeah, i guess", "Sure, i'd let him skateboard, but i'd tell him to be careful."

"So as this child's father, you would give him some basic, good advice and then let him go off and make his own mistakes?"

"I wouldn't run behind him and mollycoddle him if that's what you mean."

"But what if he fell and skinned his knee?"

"He would learn to be more careful."

"So although you have the power to interfere and prevent your child's pain, you would choose to show your love by letting him learn his own lessons?"

"Of course. Pain is part of growing up. It's how we learn."

God created us. He paved the path for us to live and gave us basic survival skills. We are on our own from there. I never understood Christians who prayed for anything and everything in the world. God would be rather silly to give you what you ask for. He put us on earth to live our own life, not so that he can babysit us with everything we need.

5. Athesists, science and religion (Pg 422)

"And all this while, you proclaim the church is ignorant. But who is more ignorant? The man who cannot define lightning, or the man who does not respect its awesome power? This church is reaching out to you. Reaching out to everyone. And yet the more we reach, the more you push us away. Show me proof there is a God, you say. I say use your telescopes to look out to the heavens, and tell me how there could not be a God!"

"You ask what does God look like. I say, where did that question come from? The answers are one and the same. Do you not see God in your science? How can you miss Him! You proclaim that even the slightest change in the force of gravity or the weight of an atom would have rendered our universe a lifeless mist rather than our magnificent sea of heavenly bodies, and yet you fail to see God's hand in this? Is it really so much easier to believe that we simply chose the right card from a deck of billions? Have we become so spiritually bankrupy that we would rather believe the mathematical impossibility than in a power greater than us?"

Using Science to denounce God? The Big Bang? Come on, Think about how science came about in the first place. Enough said.

6. Adrenaline rushes and spirituality(Pg 532)

"As you probably know, Vittoria, human beings normally use a very small percentage of their brain power. However, if you put them in emotionally charged situations - like physical trauma, extreme joy or fear, deep meditations - all of a sudden their neurons start firing like crazy, resulting in massively enhanced mental clarity"

"So what? Just because you think clearly dosen't mean you talk to God."

"Aha! And yet remarkable solutions to seemingly impossible problems only occur in moments of clarity. It's what gurus call higher consciousness. Biologists call it altered states. Psychologists call it super-sentinence. And Christians call it answered prayer." "Sometimes, divine revelation simply means adjusting your brain to heart what your heart already knows."

Yet another example whereby we cannot deny the existence of a God. We claim its our quick thinking and intelligent minds that solve problems of the day. True that, but who gave you those precious brains?

7. Procreation and popes (Pg 594)

I never understood why Popes, the key person at the top of the Catholic church hierachy who commands supreme power of the chruch is banned from "God's ultimate miracle of creation." If procreation was something unclean or dirty which caused Popes to refrain from, what of their parents then?

To wrap things up, i take my stand. I do believe in God, but i do not suscribe to any certain religion. Period.

When I do good, I feel good; when i do bad; i feel bad. That's my religion.
- Abraham Lincoln

True religion is real living; living with all one's soul, with all one's goodness and righteousness.
- Albert Einstein

Scientists were rated as great heretics by the church, but they were truly religious men because of their faith in the orderliness of the universe.
- Albert Einstein

There it is, ladies and gentlemen. The brain candy all laid out.
Have fun feasting.

rockin always'
jiahuang

JAPAN

2008-09-30T00:00:00.007+08:00

JAPAN

Greetings earthlings i have just recently returned from an expedition to Japan(Tokyo) and here are some tips and guides for all you out there who intend to visit Japan in the (near) future.

Things you should know about Japan before visiting:

Standard of living in Japan is relatively high. Everything from food to clothes to lodging is about 1.5x more expensive than in Singapore

About 85% of the working class wear suits to work, even cabbies. To avoid looking weird, do not wear slippers and singlets with shorts.

95% of Japanese people either do not speak English at all, or speak only basic or/and broken English. So be sure to get someone who can speak Japanese with you if you intend to visit the country without going on tour.

Right lane on escalators is for people in a rush to proceed through, so keep on the left lane unless you intend to get pushed around.

If you are on a free and easy trip, it will cost you about $1,000 yen a day to travel around by their various train systems, and about $5,000 on food. I personally (over)spent about $25,000 yen a day, so be sure to bring enough yen for your trip. Remember, convertion rate is 100 Yen to 1 USD.

Taking their cabs for daily transport is pure suicide(unless ur crazily rich). It costs $700 yen just to get in, and each tick of the fare is 90 yen.

Some basic words/phrases/sentences in Japanese that you should know:

Nippon go wa wakalimasen. (i don't understand japanese)

this one is probably the most important

Arigato gozaimas (thank you very much)

Ohayou (good morning)

Kombanwak (good evening)

Moshi moshi (hello)

Dou itashimashite (you're welcome)

Sumemasen (excuse me)

Konichiwa (good afternoon)

Watashiwa _________ desu (i am _________ )

Sayonara (Bye)

Oishi! (yummy!)

So des ka (oh i see)

Hai, wakarimasu (yes, i understand)

Gomen nasai (sorry)

Things you should eat in Japan.
(DISCLAIMER: EATING ANY OF THESE COULD POTENTIALLY THWART YOUR FUTURE APPETITE TOWARDS THE SINGAPOREAN VERSION OF THE FOOD)

Tempura

Ramen

Sushi

Sashimi. (if you dont eat this, you fail.)

Teppanyaki

MOS Burger (different from SG)

Yoshinoya (different from SG too)

Udon

Bento sets from 7-11 (damn good)
All kinds of assorted pastries, cakes, sweets and chocolates. And the $3,700 yen per piece swiss roll.

Places to visit:

Roppingi, central of the nightlife clubbing and pubs area. Nothing much there in the day so be sure only to visit at night.

Harajuku. This is the area where most teenagers hang out and shop for stuff. Its actually like bugis street in Singapore, except the prices of everything is much more steep.

Shibuya. More shopping and eating here, nuff said.

Tsukijishijo. Theres a fish market here where you can buy back fresh fish that were just hooked. You can also see for yourself the process of fish bidding, where huge fish are thrown up for auction. To do that you will have to reach there at about 5 am, though.

Ginza, AKA most expensive shopping area where most of the stuff are virtually "see but no touch". Somewhat likened to be like the Paragon of Singapore. Be sure to check out the $10,000,000 yen ($100,000 USD) watch as well as handbag.

Mt Fuji. Catch a glimpse of this majestic snow capped "mountain" at the cost of $160 USD per pax. Either that or you can just stay at the bottom of the mountain and take photographs of it without spending a cent.

Disneyland/Sea @ Urayasu. I went to disneyLAND personally. Highly overrated in my opinion. Im just not the kind of person to queue up for 30 - 60 mins just for one (thrilling) ride, although i must say, the atmostphere and whole outlook of the place was really well furnished, furbished, and impressive.

Things you should be looking out for in Japan :

Hot girls. But actually u dont really need to look out for them, they are ubiquitous in Japan. (sorry girls not many hot guys out there, or at least i didnt notice)

Cosplay characters, road shows and performances. Self explanatory

People dressed in all sorts of weird clothes. In Japan, anything goes. Their fashion that is.

Oh yeah, be sure to catch a ride in the bullet train which travels at 300 KMH. Faster than F1 cars.

Ok thats about it i cant think of anything else/forgot everything else.
Till next time

rockin' always,
jiahuang

QQ

2008-09-20T00:27:00.003+08:00

people. my previous blog post wasent referring to anyone of you, dont get all paranoid please.
let me clarify a few things.

1. i will never write anything bad about my friends who read my blog on my blog cause that would be plain suicidal.

2. im not the kind of person to drag stuff like these, or say stuff behind peoples' backs. if i had a problem with you i wouldve said it to you right in your face. yeah straightforward i know.

3. when i quote stuff like "from my friend's blog", or "after reading my friend's blog", it dosent mean the post im writing about refers to the owner of the blog its just some material from the post that ignited some random thoughts in my mind.

4. im assuming all of you reading this page are actually my friends, or at least someone i am of neutral or better relationship with. if you have doubts on whether i actually treat you as a friend, please let me know. it will be rather sad though cause it would have mean that i seriously fail as a friend.

5. many, or most of the things on my blog are pure, mindless rants that do not aim at anyone or anything at all. basically its a venue to vent my anger and pour out all my frustrations and all the emotions and thoughts i have stuck in my head. so yeah please dont take anything to heart at all.

HOWEVER, if that previous blog post actually somehow affected you, or you in one way or another reacted to it, then again, it might mean something... think about it i guess? (no offence here)

.... either that or my posts are just too influential..... what are the odds of that. lol

LOL WUT

2008-09-18T02:49:00.007+08:00

LOL WUT?

Hmmm havent had enough time/ been in the mood / didnt feel like blogging lately.

Well just now ive been reading one of my friend's blog, and it kind of makes me wonder how some people can be totally unappreciative of the things given to them.

You know just how some people smoothly sail through their life so far, not having to worry about their food clothes house education or even future, but yet make a big fuss out of the tiniest things, and enter a state of hysteria at the most microscopic obstacles in life... which happens to be part and parcel of the routine ups and downs in the lives of average mortals like me.

...whatever happened to the virtue of forgiving and forgetting?

Ok fine i admit. I am probably a hypocrite by saying that too... that is if you compare me to an average starving african kid.

I mean, seriously, stuff like... you ordered an apple pie, they gave you a chicken pie, and you dont like chicken pie, well fine, ask for a replacement, dont patronise them anymore, whatever makes you happy, get over it, no need to complain to ministry of health whatsoever over such superficial matters, it just demeans your intelligence to that of a pig. Oh wait, sorry, no offence to you... pigs.

Rich's man disease they call it. Live a good life eat good food dressed up in branded clothes get driven around by a mercedes popular amongst people your friends all revolve around you, yet at the sight of the slightest problem, you totally freak out and scream like you were going to die a virgin. And then all ur friends start crowding around you comforting consolling telling you its going to be alright what have you....... whats with that major sense of insecurity?

Attention whore much?
Grow up, damnit, you're just making yourself look like a wimp with zero character.
Perharps the doctor removed your backbone while you were an infant.

Oh well. I guess theres no helping it and there will be bound to be people like that in our lives (not aiming this at any particular person or anyone). Live with it i guess, its probably harder to change their mindsets than to find kryptonite.

...whatever happened to the virtue of finding delight in the little joys and blessings in life?

What these people really need is.... some major crisis.... some kind of "catastrophe" in their lives to strike them hard to really wake them up.

Like if they were the US economy, they need to be struck by something as hard as the entire subprime crisis.

September 11? Not really... it was far from a crisis for the US... ironically.

"If they could spend a day or two, walking in someone else's shoes, i dont think they would survive" - Good Charlotte, Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous

rockin' always,
jiahuang

Enigma

2008-09-07T22:30:00.006+08:00

Enigma

Life's getting more complicated as usual.

Its as if every form of communication around us has some sort of hidden code, some concealed secret meaning, like a subliminal message or something.

The words we speak, the way we act, unspoken communication; everything seems to have a "secret agenda" to it, all smothered and polished with polictics and strife from society.

People dont seem to mean what they say anymore.
Words are losing their value.

And to think the world will be a much less complicated place to live in if there wasen't litreature.
Yet without litreature, the world seems like a boring place to live in.

Seems like the smarter we get, the stupider we become.

Maybe im just thinking too much.

Oh btw "psbohf kvjdf" means "orange juice".

Anyway, ive recently read Digital Fortress by Dan Brown, and inspired by the codes and stuff like that, ive written my own very own code. Decode it and ill give you 50 SGD, no joke.
Here goes:

Jiahuang "0717121906 051301 241407112007 07091717 070925".

Hint : Its a sentence.

On a lighter note, ive decided that i need to abstain from fried / junk food.

My mom has been telling me to take good care of my face so that she wont need to send me to the national skin centre like my brother did.

So, to get rid of my pimples once and for all, ive wrote the following guidelines for myself:

1. No Fried Food
2. No Junk Food
3. No Biscuits
4. Avoid heaty stuff
5. Wash face at least twice a day
6. Remember to use pimple cream after washing face
7. Drink at least 2 jugs of water a day
8. Eat more fruits
9. Sleep early

Ok i know this sounds more like "the ultimate guide to staying healthy", but oh well i guess the root cause to my pimples is probably cause of my unhealthy lifestyle.

Blah im not really sure what im blabbering around in this post. i seriously need some sleep, i think im falling sick.

rockin always,
jh

Dreams

2008-08-31T02:48:00.005+08:00

Dreams

Just realized this is my 50th post. Never knew i had that many posts, oh well.
Ok getting back to the topic..

Ive been having weird dreams lately.
like really really weird dreams.
like really really weird bizzare dreams.
like really really weird bizzare ridiculous dreams.
like really really weird bizzare ridiculous ludicrous dreams.
Ok you get the idea.

I cant really remember most of them, nor the details, but heres the one that i remember the best:

I was supposed to meet up with my friends at macdonalds park for dinner(?), but all of them were like late. Except me and this other guy. So we were walking around (the roads?) and hey! i found a FREE porsche! Dont ask me why it wasent a Lamborghini Murcielago,it should have been, but ok. Yeah. Porsche.

Apparantly the bumpers were damaged a LITTLE. So the owner of the porsche decided to disown it due to the bumpers being slightly damaged. Ok well so obviously me being me, i "stole" it and drove it around (dont ask me how i managed to do that without the car keys), with my friends. (dont ask me when or how they got there) the roads. Without a driving liscence of course heh.

I needed (or wanted) to do a U-turn, so i drove up a overhead bridge, drove over to the opposite side of the road and went down. Ya somehow the car managed to "use" the overhead bridge. There was no one using the overhead bridge at that moment, so yah i didnt murder anyone.

Apparantly after having a spin for quite some time, my friends suddenly VANISHED (wow!). So i brought the porsche home and put it in my house garage. (....since when did i have a garage LOL) Ya. After that i went to sleep.

When i woke up, somehow the Porsche turned into a BICYCLE. Yah it was a BICYCLE. With a "Porsche" printed on it. My dad was beside me then, so i asked him what happened to the Porsche.

Then i woke up.
For real this time.

Geez i really wonder how dreams work sometimes.

rockin always,
jh

im tired

2008-08-24T03:45:00.002+08:00

... and we will hereby be known as Gush!

Here are the tabulation of vote results, in case you were interested:

Gush! - 21 + 10 = 31
Lollerblade - 3
Caesura - 19 + 5 = 24
NFS - 2

Sorry if i dont sound even a microscopic bit enthusiastic, theres just too many things going on in my head right now. It makes me feel as if my head was a washing machine, spinning, turning and churning. At the end of it, theres nothing left but wet soggy disorganised messy and crumpled up pieces of clothes.

The best solution to this is to empty it and take all the clothes out to dry no?
& by doing that, it leaves behind a hollow case with nothing filled but emptiness.

People have been telling me that i'm easy to strike a conversation with recently, not always the exact words, but somewhere along those lines.

It kind of makes me look back and think about how much i have CHANGED over the years. I remember the days when most people thought i was damn "dao" (so they call it) or unapprochable, or so i thought. Once again, somewhere along those lines.

Like wow, seriously i am amazed at the dramatic change in me, thinking in retrospect.
Perharps its a change for the better now that im more sociable/friendly/talkative what have you?

Or does it mean im just becoming lesser and lesser of myself?

Change is constant,
the world is changing all the time.
that is inevitable.

Technological advancements is change,
economic crisis is change,
even growing up is part of change.

And precisely because of this change, our world is all knotty and tangled up in the state of labyrinthine it is today.

Everything is just getting too complex and complicated, too intricate perharps.

Im tired.

I miss the days when we cared more about whether we were going to have ice cream for desserts more than whether George W. Bush was going to become president of the United States.

I miss the days when gifts and presents were all about "the thought that counts".

I miss the days when real, selfless, un-polluted and un-corrupted love existed.

Ignorance, you may call it,
I couldn't give a damn.

Dear reader,

Does having ten billion dollars, five thousand handphones, twenty thousand friends and a hundred girl/boyfriends make your life fufiled?

What are you trying to achieve in your life?

What is your purpose in life?

Joke's on you buddy. YOU are the ignorant fool.

"Why can't we see, that when we bleed we bleed the same" - Muse, Map of the problematique

ZITS

2008-08-17T17:40:00.003+08:00

This is the ZITS comic strip found on today's life! paper, i found it rather interesting.
For a clearer view, read the newspaper yourself.

some things are better left unsaid

2008-08-17T17:38:00.000+08:00

Some things are better left unsaid, or is that just an excuse for people to escape reality?

Some things should only be kept to yourself, nomatter the situation or condition.

Some people actually do know whats going on, but are just apprehensive on whether to reveal it.

Some people are just once bitten twice shy

my heart keeps telling me i do, but my mind keeps telling me not to

Band name

2008-08-13T15:34:00.002+08:00

Band Name

UPDATE : By unoffical decree, the three of us has decided that our votes should be worth 5 votes each. Me and Magnus both put our votes to Gush!, while David puts his vote to Caesura. So thats +10 for Gush! and +5 for Caesura.

Soooooooooo my band has decided to get a new name, and YOU get to decide on what name you want us to be!

We have shortlisted 4 different names in total, and theres a poll above where you can vote for the name you like best!

There is also a short description on each of the 4 names and why we shortlisted them.
Vote honestly and responsibly. Our future lies in YOUR hands. Ok its not THAT serious i guess LOL.

Here goes:

1. Gush!

Gush! Me and Magnus thought of this name somehow while travelling off from the studio. If you play dota you might know this to be one of Tidehunter's skills, ok thats not the point.

Gush!, with the exclamation mark and enthusiasm, represents our deep passion for music, as well as our overflowing zeal to create music for people.

2. Lollerblade

We came up with this jokingly one day, but realized it wasent such a bad idea afterall. Lolllerblade sounds like a total joke kind of a name - which is the effect we are trying to attain.

Lollerblade represents our prankster kind of style, full of jokes and fun kind of a band.

3. Caesura

David came up with this. Heres the definition of the word from dictionary.com:

1. Prosody. a break, esp. a sense pause, usually near the middle of a verse, and marked in scansion by a double vertical line, as in know then thyself ‖ presume not God to scan.

2. Classical Prosody. a division made by the ending of a word within a foot, or sometimes at the end of a foot, esp. in certain recognized places near the middle of a verse.

3. any break, pause, or interruption.

4. NFS

I came up with this one, You may think that NFS stands for Need For Speed, but no! NFS (Nasal Fat Short) represents the 3 of us. Its nicknames we came up for each other. Im supposedly Nasal, Magnus supposedly Fat, and David Short. Notice i didnt add "supposedly" after david.

Nasal Fat Short. Unfortunately this name won't stand if we recruit more members.

Thats all, now to vote!

rockin' always,
jiahuang

sigh tired

2008-08-04T01:30:00.004+08:00

Too tired too busy too restless and too little time to sleep. Ill update again when the hit counts reach 1111, i promise.

P.S. jiahuang is known to break his promises

Toto

2008-07-28T23:11:00.012+08:00

Singapore Toto

Welcome back boys and girls, today i will be touching on an interesting* topic: Toto!
*interesting might be subjective

Since i have a test on probability tomorrow, I figured i'd do some revision you see. =]

For those of you not familiar to this game of sheer luck and chance, i will elaborate further later on.

I will be splitting the entire thing up into 3 "chapters". It might be a little long-winded. Do bear with it.

Chapter 1 : Basic concept and probability

So this is how the game works : For basic play, you pay 50 cents for a choice of 6 numbers, out of a total of 45 possible numbers. If you strike 4 numbers and above (dosent have to be in permutations), you win. The more numbers you strike, the more money you get back. Simple enough.

Lets take a look at some of the basic probabilities now.

Recalling the formula for finding possible number of ways in which we are able to strike a certain number of objects (r) can be selected from a larger set of objects (n) given as n factorial divided r factorial times (n - r ) factorial, we can quickly calculate the probability of striking all 6 numbers expressed as :

45!/ [6!(45-6)!]
=8145060

Therefore, probability of winning first prize (all 6 numbers) is 1/8,145,060.

If you guys learnt Permutations and Combinations(PnC) before, the formula can also be expressed as (6C6 x 39C0)/45C6, where 6C6 refers to the number of winning numbers, 45C6 referring to the total possible combinations, and 39C0, the numbers chose not inclusive of the winning numbers.

To calculate the probability of winning 5 numbers out of 6, it can be thus expressed as (6C5 x 39C1)/45C6 and for 4 numbers, (6C4 x 39C2)/45C6

Chapter 2 : System 12 and System 15

"System" as they call it allows you to buy more than 6 numbers in one shot, for example system 7 allows you to buy 7 numbers in a single card, system 9 allows you to buy 9 numbers, so on and so forth. Of course, you will have to pay more to get more numbers, naturally.

Lets take a look at system 12 and 15, as well as their respective probabilities:

Please note, im ommitting decimel places for simplicity, so the actual workings below may not turn out to be the exact answers.

Basic play ($0.50)

6/6 numbers,
(6C6 x 39C0)/45C6
= 1/8145060

5/6 numbers,
(6C5 x 39C1)/45C6
=1/34808

4/6 numbers,
(6C4 x 39C2)/45C6
=1/733

System 12 ($462)

6/6 numbers,
(12C6 x 39C0)/45C6
=1/8815

5/6 numbers,
(12C5 x 39C1)/45C6
=1/1469

4/6 numbers,
(12C4 x 39C2)/45C6
=1/22

System 15 ($2500)

6/6 numbers,
(15C6 x 39C0)/45C6
=1/1627

5/6 numbers,
(15C5 x 39C1)/45C6
=1/271

4/6 numbers,
(15C4 x 39C2)/45C6
=1/8

So comparing relativity...

1 System 15 play = 5000 basic plays
1 System 15 play = 5.4 System 12 plays

P(6/6 strikes for basic play in 5000 tries)
= 5000 x 1/8145060
=1/1629

P(6/6 strikes for system 12 play in 5.4 tries)
=5.4 x 1/8815
=1/1628

P(6/6 strikes for system 15 play in 1 try)
=1/1627

In case u were thinking the difference is negligible, lemme do the maths for you. To calculate the difference between 5000 basic plays and 1 system 15 play, its basically:

[(1/1627)-(1/1629)] / (1/45C6),
Which equals to a total of 6.1x basic plays.

Chapter 3: Sustainability

Since System 15 clearly offers the best odds, we will be using that as our benchmark.

Since P(6/6 strikes for system 15 play in 1 try) = 1/1627, assuming probability to be constant and cumulative, to hit a 100% for the jackpot, we will need to play 1627 times, which will cost a total of:
1627 x $2500,
=$4,067,500.

Since the frequency for toto draws are about twice every week, you will take about 16 years just to play 1627 times to win the jackpot ASSUMING CUMULATIVE AND CONSTANT PROBABILITY.

To calculate total possible profit, we take all total possible probabilities, match them up to their respective prizes, and add them up together.

Assuming jackpot to be $4,000,000, winning 5/6 numbers would get you approximately $1,5000,000, and 4 numbers always give a standard of $30 only. Pathetic shit.

Therefore, theoratical* amount that can be won from one try of system 15 is this:

[(1/1627) x $4,000,000] + [( 1/271) x $1,500,000] + [(1/8)x $20]
= $7996.07

*theoratical as, in real life its not possible to win a higher tier prize together with other lower tier prizes, as well as only if no one else wins together with you. Read point number 3 below to understand why.

Conclusion

I always felt every story should end with something we can learn from, and therefore im going to wrap this up with some "morals of the day".

So well, lets let the figures do the talking:

1. It is clear that buying large quantities of small bets give lesser probability than a single large bet. So if you are thinking of buying toto, only system 15 should be considered.

2. You should only be trying if the jackpot is more than $4,067,500, since thats the total cost you will need to play 1627 times of system 15 games.

3. Oh did i mention, if someone else hits jackpot too, u need to share the jackpot with him. Uber pwned.

4. Even if the jackpot is $234,324,324,656,567, you shouldnt be buying unless you can afford to throw in $2,500 with a 1626/1627 chance of losing it.

5.If you were thinking of buying small bets and "trying your luck", I'd say save it cause u only have one out of approximately eight million chances. That means even if you buy a thousand tickets every week since u were born and assuming u live till 100 years old, you wont even have bought enough to hit 100% probability assuming culmilative probability. So yeah, stop throwing money away.

6. In a nutshell, dont play Toto.

Just think about what you can be doing with 4 million dollars if you saved up instead. Assuming you put all of it in secured bonds/invesments offering you 5% compounded interest, within 16 years, you would have gotten back a total of $8,731,498.35, more than double of what you had 16 years ago. You might even be able to pull off a scam that you won toto after that. Oh did i mention, 5% compounded interest is HIGHLY underrated. Go figure the potential.

Thats all........ phew.....

rockin' always,
jiahuang

Chocolate

2008-07-23T23:11:00.004+08:00

Chocolate never tasted so good

Ignore my previous post, im not so sure why i wrote it either, in retrospect.

Life is full of ups and downs, and as people always say, not everyday is Sunday, and there are bound to be obstacles down the road of Life. I guess im no exception in this case, everyone's bound to have their share of bad days.

Oh well, what dosen't kill you makes you stronger.

Okay on a lighter* note, i was talking to my friend earlier today and he was telling me about how he was trying to woo this girl, and that how that girl came up with an extremely lame uber stupid excuse to reject him. I couldn't remember the exact thing, but it was as ridiculous as "The sky isn't blue today so we cannot be together".
(lighter may be subjective)

Girls,
For Oestrogen's sake, do NOT come up with a lame excuse just so you "dont want to hurt his feelings". We KNOW deep down its a lame excuse, and it just makes us feel worse. We just shut the hell up on this because we dont want to hurt you back.

If you have been there, done that, please, for God's sake, give yourself a tight slap right now. For real.

Seriously, i mean, just go straight to the point man. Don't go one huge round talking about your mom and your dad your dog your periods the sky your computer or having no time or whatsoever. Like a simple "I don't think we can be together" or " I don't have that kind of feelings for you" would suffice. Throw in a "Sorry" at the end (even if you are being hypocritic about it) if you want to be more courteous. The guys will get it, seriously, however dense they are.

In the event they dont, please slap them, ask them to f*ck off and grow some testosterone, you can quote me on this.

Guys,
The next time a girl pulls off a Lame Uber Stupid Excuse (LUSE) on you, please, for the sake of whoever you worship, slap them, ask them to f*ck off and grow up.

Thats all i have to say for now.
Oh btw im not sexist.

rockin' always,
jiahuang

Fuck

2008-07-21T21:00:00.004+08:00

Screw all these lies, pretence, hypocrisy and deceit.
Stop playing mind games, innuendo & insinuation.
Disparage corruption, immorality & putrescence.
Denounce any shit with political agenda.
Vituperate the villians of society and yet,
Vindicating the men behind the scenes.
Freak out on expletives, thats you.
Fcuk the world.

Sigh

2008-07-20T02:41:00.002+08:00

Sigh

drumset!

2008-07-15T00:16:00.012+08:00

My D Rums E T

Whooooo, I realized i was being a little biased last post as i posted pictures of my guitar the moment i bought it, but never once did i upload a picture of my drumset. So here i am!

Ill let the "Thousand word"s speak for themselves this time, enjoy:

The pictures are in random order and not in in sequence or timeline, but generally the pictures which show lesser cymbals are the older pictures.

Thats all. Chao.

rockin always,

jiahuang.

Geetar

2008-07-09T23:05:00.012+08:00

geeTAR.

Whoopie i got my guitar. I can understand if this sounds "alarming" or at least a little "shocking" to you as i have never said anything about getting a guitar of my own or wanting to play a guitar or anything. But well yeah i bought one.

Its sorta a... somewhat hybrid kind of eletric guitar, its like a american stratocaster fender neck, with a squier telecaster body. Kind of weird i know, but it works out well.

As for the price..... i shall not disclose it, heh.

Soooooooooooo enough of talking. Since a picture paints a thousand words, i shall make this my longest post ever by throwing in like six thousand words:

upside down view

i know you love those silver and gold shiny knobs

Woot pearl colour pickguard
Teh head.
Top view
side view

Oh yeah i forgot to tell you guys, i dont have a guitar pick and im playing with coca cola can tabs LOL. Its pretty much playable that way too.

BTW i dont have my own cables either (using my friend's) and i dont have a tuner and i need new strings. So! Feel free to donate. =)

Welll thats all for now folks, time for some intensive bar excercises LOL.
(inside joke)

rockin' always,

jiahuang

Kidneys for sale

2008-07-06T01:40:00.000+08:00

Kid Knees for Sail(?)

I was reading the newspaper a few days back and happened to see this article regarding the sale of organs - particularly kidneys which involved the executive chairman of CK Tang buying a kidney from an indonesian man.

Apparantly the transaction did not suceed as authorities stepped in to prevent the supposedly illegal deal from taking place. The indonesian man who was offering his kidney for sale was prosecuted, but however the executive charman of CK Tang got away scot free.

Sooooooo here i am offering my three and a half cents worth of this whole issue.
& lemme be very objective here : This is purely based on my OPINION. Whether you disagree or agree with my point of view is really your own business; To each his own.

First of all, let me start by saying that i WILL NOT consider buying a kidney IN THE EVENT that my kidney DOES fail.

HOWEVER, i am neutral towards people who buy organs and i do not blame them for their mindset. To a certain extent.

Let us not be hypocritic towards this, i mean, humans are selfish creatures, we naturally want the best for ourselves, even if it means at the expense of others. Face it.

Despite saying that, I will have to say this; hate me if you must:

People who get kidney failure really deserve it. (unless it was inborn)

Seriously, you expect to smoke and/or drink obsessively, have a bad eating diet, and get away with it? Really. Im sure that doctors have and schools and advertisements and whatsoever health organisations have somehow or another educated the masses sufficiently enough for people to know the symptoms or the causes of kidney failure. Persisting in a bad lifestyle equates to a self fufiling prophecy.

Oh yeah, and you must really have an unpleasant character when none of ur kins relatives or friends are willing to donate one of their kidney to you. Either that or you are really damn unlucky cause none of theirs can match yours.

So why is it acceptable, in my opinion, for people to buy organs when theirs failed them, even when they are total bastards who do not deserve it?

People think that with money naturally comes everything else. And this mindset has escalated to a level where people put monetary benefits and their jobs over their health, thinking that with the money from their jobs, they can buy back their health thereafter.

How else did Singapore become such a thriving city country in such a small timeframe? Its all thanks to workaholics who put priority on their "jobs over their health".

Enough of talk on the people buying the organs, lets talk about the people who sell their organs.

From a non-atheist's point of view, by selling your organ away, it can be viewed as taking a Gift from God, and giving it to someone else for superficility - money. And by giving money to someone in exchange for his/her organ, it can be seen as stealing someone else's Gift from God, and selfishly using it for yourself, which is why i will never consider buying an organ even in the event when my kidney/liver etc fails.

One may argue that while the money obtained from selling one's own organ might actually help the person to live his/her life better, but it all boils down to the person's principles and attitude towards life. Giving away something bestowed upon you the minute you were born for MONEY? That would be a clear display of a lack of backbone and conviction IMO.

Simply put, this whole scenerio can be likened to the sale of sharkfin; If there are no offerors trying to sell their organs, there will be no offerees trying to buy organs. Mankind is blinded by greed, by putting up organs for sale, it entices people who desperately need them, to buy them, it is inevitable.

People say Money is the root of all evil, i cant agree more.

jiahuang wrote this after drinking sakae and is kind of tipsy.
yup i know this is a weird sign off, LOL

BIG RED BUTTON

2008-07-02T00:18:00.001+08:00

HAVE FUN NOOBS

Hope

2008-06-30T21:00:00.003+08:00

The Gift of Sight

Ok im feeling very tired right now, but since i havent been blogging lately i decided to start on this post. So, please pardon me if sound as if i havent slept in 48 hours. (Which is true, blame euro cup and Risk)

Just three days ago, i was going to whine about how bad my day was on the blog. To be honest it was an extremely screwd up day, like one of the most screwd up days i ever had. I can't exactly remember what happened, but here are some of the events that happened.

1. I woke up at 4 am, realized i had fallen asleep by accident
theprevious day, lights were still on and i haven't got my shirt on
2. Couldnt get back to sleep till 7am..... nuff said.
3. Woke up at 10.00 to prepare for my drums lesson at 10.30,
woke up tobrush my teeth and realized there was no more toothpaste
4. While in the shower, realized i ran out of shampoo
5. Just before i got out of the house, had a bad stomach ache
and i had to go visit the loo several times. Probably due to sleeping in air con without myshirt on and without blankets.
6. Had to cancel drums lesson for that.
7. Went out with intention to watch movie. Realized i haven't
got enough money and had to borrow from a friend.
8. Totally penniless after paying for the two cymbal stands
at my music school
9. Had an extra student to teach that evening. Had to give LOVEMG a
miss cause of that.
10. Had troubles transporting the cymbal stands home. Luckily
XY's mom offered to fetch me home.
11. His mom had to drop me at hwa chong cause his sister's
friend was in a rush to get home
12. That effectively meant i had to carry the 2 cymbal stands,
and my bag, all the way from hwa chong to my house. And yes in case u didnt know
already, its quite a considerable distance.
13. Got back home. Wanted a good
shower. Forgot that i had run out of shampoo. Again. Epic fail.
14. And toothpaste.

Just before i was about to whine and rant my ass off while blogging , the following day while travelling down to jurong for tennis, i met this blind guy on the bus who sat beside me. Yes, blind, literally.

We started talking somehow... it all happened very naturally. So he was telling me about how he was born blind, and how he would travel around between places and his home only with the help of his waking stick. What impresses me the most is that he dosen't blame anyone for him being born without the gift of sight, he said: " I dont blame anyone for this, God made me the way i am, and it is the way i should accept it."

I started to think of myself and how i would be living one day if i were to be blind instead. Born without one of the five senses, the most important one in my opinion, to be deprived of the ability to see the wonders of the world, but instead engulfed in permanant darkness, unable to break free from the black screen of death. I couldn't imagine myself in his shoes for even a minute. I think i would just lose all hope in Life and just bum my entire life off while waiting for the grim reaper to come knocking on my door.

I suddenly hold this man in great respect. Even as he is not as fortunate as any one of us to have the gift of sight, he does not blame anyone, and instead lives life till its fullest, which most of us pale in comparision with him when it comes to living life to its fullest.

Maybe sometimes its a good thing to be unable to see, to be shielded from all the hypocrisy, sacarsm and bad politics of the world, smiling, sharing and living life whole-heartedly while keeping everything to its purest and most innocent form. Perharps you might think that that would be just pure ignorance, but don't you think that somtimes, Ignorance is Bliss?

Afterall its all about whatever makes you happy.

Suddenly, all my problems and "hardships" that i claim that i have been undertaking in my life all seem so small, so small compared to people like him. It just dawns upon me how much a superficial person i am in comparision.

Yesterday is History, Tomorrow is a Mystery, Today is a Gift, thats why its called "The Present".

rockin' always,
Jiahuang

who wants to be a millionaire

2008-06-25T01:55:00.004+08:00

Who wants to be a millionaire

To showcase how two different people can be totally miles apart in terms of their wisdom, ive put up three videos of various contestants of the variety show: who wants to be a millionaire.

First, watch this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_AffQ7pbvKs&feature=related

Then, this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMriTkE3igY&feature=related

And this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4nXuNIIJau0&NR=1

Lollerblade lmaosine roflcopter.

Yep, thats all. Have fun folks.

rockin' always,
Jiahuang

Jim Beam

2008-06-23T00:53:00.003+08:00

Im never touching Jim Beam again. (inside joke)

Hey ho its finally the holidays for me NOW! Ok well its just a pathetic one week, but well, better than nothing i guess.

And yes in case you were wondering fellow friends in JC or poly, my holidays start when yours ended. & yes you guessed it, i have been skipipng school to go out with yall the past month. LOL.

Ok. Back to the point.
So its my holidays now, and i have come up with some "resolutions" for this one week holiday.
I KNOW i know one week is pathetic, but we gotta make the best use of our time no?

Sooooooo, here the plan(beisdes eating drinking sleeping playing slacking and the regular hangouts with friends) :

1. Catch up on my drums, i havent been playing much lately.

2. Start a facebook account. Yes i have been instigated to do this.

3. Find a piano piece to play for my music school's student recital

4. Practice it.

5. Get the 2x cymbal stands pre-ordered from my music school

6. Re-arrange my drumset and get the cupboard out of my room to fit the 2 more stands

7. Train up. This includes 2.4km runs, pushups, pullups, and weight lifting. Sigh NS.

8. Organize my notes and clear the rubbish in my room.

9. I probably dont have any more time for number nine. Lol.

Ok well thats all folks, chao.

rockin' always,
Jiahuang

Dead

2008-06-19T23:00:00.007+08:00

Its 11.00pm ,

& i have six chapters of principles of marketing and productions management to study for my exam tomorrow morning.

Oh boy am i dead.

No time to lose gotta go!

rockin always,
jiahuang

woo

2008-06-16T23:59:00.003+08:00

WoO0oO0oO0!

Im in ecstacy.

There are a few reasons to that. Let me list them out(not in any order of priority):

1. I finally took and finished my business law exam! Woot! It was like the most pressurizing exam out of all my papers, and not to mention also, the paper that i studied the hardest for.

2. I bought a new 17" zildjian k custom hybrid crash cymbal, in case you havent noticed, thats another item striked off my wishlist, and one more piece to my drumset woooot. For those of you who know me well enough already, you should know why im so excited about this.

3. i get to sleep early today and wake up late tomorrow. i have been sleeping at unearthly hours for the past few days, resulting in my eyes being damn dry and its beginning to twitch non stop. And yes i like to sleep alot, in case you do not know yet.

4. i tried gloria jean's caramel latte today. Ok, well although i used the money borrowed from someone else to buy the coffee (due to the fact i bought my crash cymbal for 330 after discount which was exactly what i had in my wallet, ya like no shit, exactly 330.00, talk about fate), ok but well the caramel latte was rather good, a little more bitter and stronger than the ones served in coffee bean or starbucks, and personally i find it more to my liking. Maybe the caffaine had a bit of a "high" effect on me too.

5. im broke. i know this sounds weird, but i like being broke, then ill have desire and ambition to make more money, and buy more stuff (like cymbals!), which is good, ok actually im not sure if im making sense LOL.

Ok anyway, so im tired, and i wanna sleep, and im going to go talk on msn a bit go shower and then sleep. Chao.

rockin' always,
Jiahuang

exams

2008-06-15T00:10:00.008+08:00

I fucking hate exams.

The Perfect Girlfriend

2008-06-12T21:31:00.004+08:00

The Perfect Girlfriend LOL

Ok, lol, i found this cool stuff somewhere online

I, [print your name here] (heretofore referred to as “The Lady”), being of sound mind, have entered into a relationship with [print guy’s name here] (heretofore referred to as “The Man”). By signing below, I hereby agree to abide by all the rules as set out within this contract in perpetuity.

Clause 1: Dates

A. The Lady will eat more than a side salad.

B. The Man will not be expected to plan every date. He will be chivalrous, but he will not be the cruise director of the relationship.

C. If The Lady would like to attend an event that she knows The Man will despise, she is advised to do so with other people (See Clause 5: Extra-Curricular Activities). However, should she deem a night at the ballet, opera, or foreign movie house to be a necessity within the scope of the relationship, she should make plans (transportation, tickets, etc.) for this evening herself.

By accepting this Lady-partisan date, The Man will be guaranteed one (1) date on which both parties participate in an activity of his choice—including, but not limited to: Attending an athletic event, watching a martial-arts movie, or going out for a large BBQ dinner.

Clause 2: Dialogue

A. The Lady will never discuss an ex-boyfriend.
Rule 2-A above may be broken if The Lady mentions a deep and abiding flaw in the ex-boyfriend, while also discussing ways in which The Man betters said ex.

B. If The Lady wants something or wants to know something, she will ask. There will be no hints or guessing games.

C. Any cute nicknames that The Lady has devised for The Man will never be spoken in public. See Clause 6, Section a, Subsection 3 for explanation.

Furthermore, The Lady may not devise any nickname that includes a diminutive or that is spoken in baby-voice (e.g., “Little John” or “Snuggle Bear”).

Clause 3: The Bedroom

A. During moments of physicality, The Lady will voice her wishes so that The Man knows how best to make her enjoy the experience. This is expected not only for her sake, but for his. The Man is a prideful being. He wants to know he can do everything right.

B. The Man reserves the right to his favorite side of the bed at all times, no exceptions. He may permit The Lady to rest on his chosen side if he wishes, but should he find himself tossing and turning at 3 a.m., it is his right to reclaim said side with no ill will from The Lady.

Clause 4: Family

A. The Lady will not ask The Man to meet her family until at least one month of dating has been completed.

B. Upon meeting The Man’s mother, The Lady will try to learn as many of Mother Man’s recipes as possible. And yes, The Man likes his chicken that dry.

Clause 5: Extracurricular Activities

A. The Man will be guaranteed at least one Guys’ Night per week, chosen at his discretion. He will also retain at least two extra “floating” Guys’ Nights per month in case of an important sporting event or should an impromptu post-work visit to the bar arise.

B. The Lady can never be angry with a man for attending Guys’ Night.

C. The Lady will not call The Man more than once per Guys’ Night.

D. The Lady is encouraged to go out with her own friends as a means for keeping her independence and sense of self. However, there are ground rules for these engagements:

She will not ask The Man to attend any event on the day of a televised athletic match, any event that involves the phrase “pot luck,” or any event that celebrates the birth of a child, impending or otherwise.
She will not expect The Man to attend a gathering solely because the boyfriend/husband of The Lady’s Friend will also be in attendance. Misery does not make good company.
No. Ex-Boyfriends. Ever.

Clause 6: Love

A. Should the two parties remain together long enough to reach Relationship Level: Serious, The Man understands that he will, at some point, be called upon to vocally express his appreciation of The Lady in the strongest method possible. When the time comes, the following rules shall govern the use of Those Three Words Which Shall Not Yet Be Spoken.

The Lady will be the first party to speak the phrase. She will do so clearly and while making eye contact so that The Man knows it is he who is being spoken to. The Lady will allow the man at least five (5) minutes to respond in kind. This reprieve does not mean he doesn’t feel the same way, only that he is apt to be flustered, frightened, and suddenly stricken with cotton-mouth.
After the first time the Man arranges the words “I,” “you,” and “love” into a sentence, he will not be required to do so in response every time The Lady speaks the phrase. The Lady will also accept “Me, too,” “Ditto,” or a high-five in return.
The Lady will never speak the three-worded phrase when The Man is in the presence of either friends or co-workers. This is done out of respect for the mockery that is sure to result should he be forced to reciprocate while with said company.

By signing below, you agree to all rules as laid out in this contract, effectively guaranteeing that you will make The Man a truly happy person for the rest of his life, or until you realize that he is a loser who requires his girlfriends to sign legally binding documents.

______________________________
Print your name

______________________________
Signature

______________________________
Date

rockin' always,
Jiahuang

Dead?

2008-06-05T22:47:00.009+08:00

DEAD?

Greetings earthlings,
My deepest and most sincere apologies for not touching my blog in the past 3,233,465,862 decades, please pardon me and i gurantee you that posts will be rolling in hot like pancakes in the near future. Rest assured that i am still well alive and kicking thank you for your concern.

And by the way, how can my blog be dead?
Blogs are inanimate objects.

Stop personifying man.

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OK DONE. WOOT. CHAO.

rockin' yer world always,
Jiahuang

music

2008-05-24T04:44:00.000+08:00

If music be the food of love, play on;
Give me excess of it, that, surfeiting,
The appetite may sicken, and so die.
That strain again! it had a dying fall:
O! it came o’er my ear like the sweet sound
That breathes upon a bank of violets,
Stealing and giving odour.
(Twelfth Night, 1.1.1-7)

While hopping around random videos in youtube, i recently came across this Jazz pianist who leaves me in sheer awe for her brilliance.

Her name is Hiromi Uehara.

Honestly speaking, ive never been a fan of jazz, but her works have changed my opinion of jazz greatly, so much so that i can actually appreciate it now. And yah, i think ive fallen head over heels for her - not by her looks, but rather smitten by the way she expresses herself on the piano, enchanting all the people listening to the wonderful music she produces from her pair of "magical" hands. Its really inspiring for me to see such a musician like her so full of drive and ego for music. (and yet i look back at myself and lament on the sad truth that i am unable to be like her)

Nevertheless, its comforting to know that there are people who actually treat music as not just their career - but their life, devoting precious hard work and effort to deliver messages that cannot be put into words, etching them deep into the hearts of people all over the globe.

If you wiki her up, this is what you will get :
Hiromi Uehara (上原ひろみ, born 26 March 1979) is a jazz composer and pianist born in Hamamatsu, Japan. She is known for her virtuosic technique, energetic live performances and blend of musical genres such as jazz, progressive rock, classical and fusion in her compositions.

To describe her, i would use these adjectives:
Bold, Expressive, Passionate, Unique.

It just suddenly dawns upon me to wonder what do most musicians really want to achieve in life. Is it the fame and glory of the showbiz scene, the big rolling bucks, or is it really the pure drive to pursue music? How many musicians out there are actually self-actualized with the thirst for constant improvement driven by themselves?

Ok crap its 4.44 am right now and im damn tired. Ill continue another time.... i guess.
*YAWN*

Oh just before i end off, heres a video of Hiromi Uehara in one of her songs, Time Out. Enjoy.

rockin always,
jiahuang

lol pwn

2008-05-19T14:40:00.004+08:00

Lesson 1:
Some people are just not worth putting your trust into.

Finally. So yesterday marks the end of the whole event that didnt exactly turn out well. I can finally breathe a huge sigh of relief. I must admit it wasent an easy ordeal triple tasking - performing, organizing stuff around, and distributing tickets. For all my friends who still came down nevertheless to support, a huge, thank you to all of you, with all sincerity, really really much appreciated.

Its not actually my first time planning for an event like this, but unfortunately this was a huge blooper as compared to the previous times. I spent some time thinking about this, and figured out the main problem lies with the lack of a crew of reliable partners. Its like purely a sole effort this time round, as compared to the previous time i did at DXO, where everyone actually played a vital role in bringing in the 600-700 odd crowd.

One more thing i realized, its not about the size of the venue that matter. The thing about home club is, its unfamiliar with at least 80% of the SG population, and being not exactly a popular club infamous for its weird vibes, it was really difficult trying to convince people to go in the first place. No doubt home is a small club, but i guess it was a bad idea for a venue to begin with.

Oh well, at least we broke even in the end, so i guess it isn't really that bad.

Ill just have to take this as a lesson learnt i guess.

Failure is the mother of sucess.

rocking yer world,
Jiahuang

ambition VS pragmatism

2008-04-06T00:20:00.005+08:00

ambition VS pragmatism

I recently took a leisure stroll around lasalle school of arts which sparked off many thoughts in me.

It was really quite stimulating to observe the students of the school all doing their things - art students working on their paintings, music students practising hard on their instruments, dance students rehearsing their next performance, as well as many students just lying around the school campus(im assuming they are finding inspiration).

The short walk in lasalle really offered me a different perception - an Escape from all the hustle and bustle in Singapore's city life. To these students of lasalle, i hold them in high esteem. Just what exactly is the factor that makes them work so hard in pursuing their dreams and ambitions, although in the end they will be no more than just another insignificant statistic in singapore's national income?

Don't get me wrong, im not trying to say that their pieces of art are no good. No, no, i personally like some of the abstract art pieces produced by Singapore's very own young budding artists. Very invigorating. (BTW this is not sacarsm.)

But just how far will these peoples' artistry bring them in Singapore?

We all know that Singapore's art scene is as good as dead, and musicians, and artists, as well as advocates of all other mediums of arts in Singapore do not earn much money.

Sure sure, different people may have different ideals, some people may be materialstic and some people *may* not be.

But just how is plain ambition going to feed the mouths of a family with three kids?

And by the way, if you think that you are not materialstic, you're in self delusion & its time to get real.
As an artist, your greatest achievement would be to have people appreciate your pieces of art is it not? So why don't you spend weeks or even months painting a masterpiece, and then giving it away to others for free then? I'm sure they will appreciate it, and I'm sure you can survive on eating soy sauce with plain rice for all three meals in your one room hdb flat.

Yah, so why not? Cause life would suck like that? Cause soy sauce and plain rice dosent taste good? Well, make a smart guess why people would willingly spend $25 to eat a plate of fried rice from a five star hotel when hawker centres sells a plate of fried rice for $3.

As much as i would like to see some radical movements in Singapore's arts scene, unfortunately its all not very feasible.

All our lives as students we are constantly on the paper chase, and as soon as we get out of the education system, we desperately thirst with the need to earn big and fast bucks. I dont blame anyone for that. Its all so much over-"advertised" by our goverment and the system itself. From birth, all we(Singaporens) have been doing all our lives is to study, study, study, promote up the ranks of education, work, work, work, climb up the coporate ladders, and finally retire, THEN use all the money that we saved up so hard for to FEED our ambition. Thats like..... totally warped around (and defeating the purpose) man.

As for myself, while i was young, i have a deep interest for music as well as architecture. I grew up playing music, as well as building houses out of ice cream sticks. Its like.... music and architecture is in my genes man. I have, at one point of my life, seriously considered doing these 2 as a career in my life. But then i constantly questioned myself and my ability to make a big career out of them.

And by the way, i sucked in physics, which happened to be a pre-requisite for architecture. So heres another factor to consider when choosing your ambition to be your career when you suck badly at the subjects or skills related ALTHOUGH you have like infinite passion, love and interest for that certain ambition.

To those people who are non confomers and freedom fighters for your ambition,
To people drived purely by passions and love for what you do,
To people not blinded by the temptations of greed,
Seriously, i salute you guys, once again.

Too bad it seems like theres no stopping people in Singapore from obtaining Fame and Fortune, and they would do anything possible to get them.

I know of a guy who was in this CCA although he hated it, as well as the people in charge of the CCA, and he stayed on just because it promised him a venue to perform and showcase his talent.

I know of people who hate their jobs but choose to stay on for the money.

I know of people extremely talented in the arts but choose to study sciences in JCs instead.

I know that, i am too, somwhat guilty.

Blame it on our culture and country that we are born in, i would say.

Maybe if i were born in Boston, i would be studying at Berklee school of music right now.

Maybe if i were born in Japan, i would be studying architecture instead of business right now.

Maybe..... who knows...

In Singapore, we do not suffer from a vicious cycle of poverty, but a vicious cycle of conformity instead.

Welcome to the world of super superficiallity.

rockin yer' world always,
Jiahuang

My Ideal life

2008-03-31T02:42:00.004+08:00

If i had SGD$10,000,000

I would buy:

Item

1. The best drumset i can ever find, axis double pedals, 10 toms, 2 snare drums, and like 20 K-Custom Cymbals.
$50,000

2. My very own underground studio fully sound-proofed with a raised platform in the middle to mount my drumset and also topping it off with 2x 200 watt guitar amplifiers, as well as one bass amp.
$150,000

3. An orange Lamborghini Murciélago.
$400,000

4. A private apartment, exteriors and interiors all fully designed by myself.
$2,000,000

5. A white grand piano. (Yamaha DC7M4 Grand in American Walnut Satin)
$50,000

6. A nightclub that i can charge people $6,000 a night.
Thats $18,000 a week assuming 3 nights a week only, estimating net profits of $15,000 per week, thats $48,000 a month. $576,000 a year. (have not even included the sales from the drinks)
$1,200,000

6. 3x chain Jamming studios with 5 rooms each.
Assuming average of $20 per hour, 10 hours a day, thats $1400 a week for one room, times five rooms, $7000 a week, $28,000 a month. Minus off $3600 staff salary = $24,400 net profits per month,$292,800 per year(and ill sell off the franchise when the business big enough)
$500,000 x 3 = $1,500,000

7. Secured debentures that can offer me 5% returns per annum.
Thats $250,000 a year.
$5,000,000

8. Everything else on Shares & stocks.
Not sure how much these can bring me.
$900,000

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Total estimated net profits per annum (not counting my own salary at that moment):
$1,118,800

like WOW thats amazing.
Im going to need my very own $$ 10,000,000,
Guess im gonna need to work hard for it D=

Aim for the stars, and even if you do not reach them, you will land somewhere around the moon.

24/7 rocking yer world,
Jiahuang

Writer's Block

2008-03-24T22:01:00.001+08:00

Writer'sBLOCK

So today i got home, enthusiastically logged onto blogger and decided to write an essay on any interesting topic i got my hands on.

Got to the "create new post" page, started to do some brainstorming, thought of some good topics to write on. A good fifteen minutes passed, yet i still have nothing"penned" down, not a single word even.

Another fifteen minutes passed, yet my screen still remains pretty much the same as before - As white as a sheet; as clean as a whistle. I'm pretty convinced by now that i have contracted it - the infamous "Writer's Block".

Its as if i suddenly lost all inspiration, and all my ideas just simply disappear.
Somehow it seemed like all my creativity has vanished into thin air, and yet i am unable to find a reason to explain all that.

I guess that some time, every writer, experiences Writer's block. No matter how great the writer, staring at a blank page can be completely frustrating. Frustration can turn into fear if ideas do not translate into written sentences.

However, writer's block occurs differently in every "writer". It might actually be beneficial to review the subject at hand during the downtime, rather than completely avoid the assignment. Writing, in any form, is difficult because it involves sharing personal ideas and opinions with an audience which can be overwhelming for a new writer.

Also, precisely becasue of the fact that writer's block occurs differently in every writer, it is difficult to define in specific terms, as each individual is bound to face different difficulties and barriers when it comes to facing their writer's block.

No doubt Writer's block happens only once in a blue moon, but because of it's nature that causes it to occur out of the blue, catching you at the most unsuspecting moments that gets really irritating.

Writer's block is like a bad cold; annoying yet surmountable.

So i guess there isnt really any way to get overcome writer's block.
But guess what?

I think i just wrote an essay.

24/7 rockin' yer world,
Jiahuang

vegetarians

2008-03-18T12:02:00.005+08:00

Meat? No Thanks!

Due to a little feedback from some people who thought my posts were a little too long, ill *try* to make this short and sweet.

Disclaimer : If you are a vegetarian for health purposes, or due to family beliefs / religious practices, dont like the taste of meat(that sounds a bit weird, come to think of it) , what im about to say does not include you and please do not take whatever i say to heart.

Vegetarians who are vegetarians for a reason or another related to animal cruelty, this post is for you:

I never understood why vegetarians refuse to eat meat. Just because its supposedly "cruel"?
I just dont see how.

Come on, if you think eating meat is cruel, how about that of eating VEGETABLES? Isnt it the same thing? Animals are living things, vegetables and plants are living things too.

Just because you cant see or hear vegetables squeal from the excruciating pain when being torn apart, does it mean they suffer less than that of animals when being slaughtered?

Just because you cant see the people in Africa suffering in poverty, does it mean they are better off than the poor and homeless beggars in your local country? Ditto.

I mean, if you really INSIST on that "it-is-ok-to-eat-veggies-but-not-meat" mindset, why don't you go convince the tigers and lions in the zoo to stop eating meat too then? Go ahead and capture all those carnivorous animals out there in the wild and stop them from commiting any of those so called "cruel acts" of eating other animals. (& btw thats gonna screw up the whole ecosystem)

The bottomline is, we are all humans who are no more than living things part of a food chain. The fact that God (Definition of God here is ambiguous, im assuming that in all religions, God is the one who created all living things) made our bodies such that it is able to digest and assimilate BOTH meat as well as plants, maybe it was INTENDED for us to thus be eating both of them. So just be grateful for whatever we have, and all is good.

Go figure.

24/7 rockn' yer world,
Jiahuang

on religion, life and death

2008-03-11T02:02:00.000+08:00

Leap of Faith
-on Religion, Life and Death

Ok i have a feeling this is gonna be one hella long of a post, embrace yourself.

So i was blog hopping and happened to chance upon this word - "Deathly" in one of my friend's blog. Supposedly this word was to be used as a figure of speech in this case, to amplify the impact, or the extent of something, for example, "I am deathly afraid of swimming."

Why "Death"? Apparantly it seems that the inventor of the word took the perception that Death is something extremely fearful and everyone should be afraid of it. To describe something else as "deathly", would thus be considered to be being afraid of something comparatively as much as Death.

Please dont attempt to challenge this definition with your dictionary or whatsoever and shatter all litreature in this.

Now my question is, why would people be afraid of death?

To tackle that question, i think first of all, we need to come to an understanding that religion and your set of beliefs play a very huge role in setting our mindset towards death, and that there are many many different religions all over the world, all offering a different idea for the afterlife.

Atheists. Ive always wanted to understand the mindset, as well as what is in their head on their deathbed of these people who denies or disbelieves the existence of a God, or Gods.

To that note, i must confess that i am NOT an infidel. I do believe in the existence of a supreme being somewhere out there, but yet somehow, i do not find myself catering to a certain religion. Yes i do attend church, i am somewhat in interaction with a christian community, but somehow i am unable to assosiate myself as a true christian. (and BTW im not a hypocrite, im trying my very best to find out and understand as much as i can) When it comes to talk about "Feeling", or "Experiencing" God, i really, really, do NOT feel anything at all. (if i ever said i experienced God, i told a lie, im sorry. i just didn't want to disappoint you)

Someone (a Christian) once told me that God created us so we could praise and worship him. I dont see how that makes sense. God didn't just create us just for the sake of creating us. I mean, why on earth, would God give Life to a bunch of people if what he intended was for these people to worship and praise him? So he could feel flattered and almighty? I think not. Think about it.

Also, i get very disturbed when i have questions (questions kept discreet. contact me if you are interested, though.) on Christianity (elaborating more on christianity, since its the only religion ive been exposed with) and it is unable to be answered, the final reply that i always gets is "God has the best plan for all of us".

It bothers me too, when it somehow seems like when a person joins a Religion, all chances, and luck appears to all get reduced to God's grace, or God's doings. I just don't see how that makes sense.

Yeah, ok. So what we gotta do is put in Faith, and believe wholeheartedly in that huh? Sure. It might be so much easier if you were born in a Christian family and all that. But would you spend some thought, and try to put yourself in the shows of someone like me, who has been born in a family that dosent practise any religion at all. Its impossible for me to just simply buy that idea.

However, being a bio student at heart, i remember what my bio teacher in secondary school would always say (somewhere along the lines of):

"Look at how perfect our body is! The way it works, the structure, how all the pieces of our body somehow are able to fit together like a jigsaw puzzle as well as work in conjunction with each other. At times like these, we can't help but point our finger to God"

Yes its true, its so true. Let me cite a simple example : Protein Digestion.

If you dont intend to read the paragraph below, you can just take it as a very long and complicated process that you probably wont be able to comprehend anytime soon, if ur not a bio student like me that is.

First, food enters the stomach and pepsinogen is secreted by the stomach which is then activated to pepsin upon the secretion of hydrochloric acid also from the stomach to break proteins in the food into polypeptides. Then these polypeptides enter the small intestines where pancreatic juice is secreted into the small intestines, and trypsinogen from pancreatic juice is converted into trypsin by enterokinase. Then these trypsin converts polypeptides into amino acids, then FINALLY these amino acids are absorbed into the body by the villi in the small intestines.

This is an extremely simplified version, by the way. If you are interested to read more, please visit : http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Forum/6100/1tamasAAproteins.html

Back to the topic. So i was saying, if you are still thinking "all this is no more than a mere coincidence", or if you dont really care how everything the world is working in a certain way, or you aren't bothered by the origin of things, then you really aren't suited to read this essay im writing here and you should just press Alt - F4. Sorry if im being harsh, but yup, thats how i really feel.

So to say, although im not a Christian, and neither do i belong to any religious groups (as of yet), if you believe in God, i would still strongly encourage you to do prayers. I believe its the only way to commune with God, so as to self-actualize the spiritual side of you. Also, it helps you to obtain mental peace. At least thats the case for me.

To sum things up, i would like to say that my idea of God, is someone who created each and every individual & unique one of us, giving us different abilities as well as talents, but ultimately leaving the Fate, as well as the responsibility of our lives in our own hands. If God were the one who made us, im sure that he would like us to be the ones who find our own meanings in our lives, and that we needn't worry about our afterlifes either, because if God has a way to bring us here, there is surely a way for God to bring us back, to wherever that is.

In my opinion, taking on a Religion is like taking a leap of Faith - a considerably large one in fact. Maybe im in no position to be judgemental. Maybe some of you out there have much more experience than i do, spiritually. Maybe you, as the reader, has already experienced God, thus unable to empathise with me.

Maybe we all need to understand the fact that there are bound to be differences between people and we just need to accept them with grace and poise.

Pertaining to " The (spiritual) meaning of life ", i wouldn't be able to answer anything on that for now as i haven't exactly found mine. To fully experience life, maybe - The pain, the sufferring, the laughter, the happiness and the bliss, who knows? God gave me (the average life expectancy of a male Singaporean) 79 years to live for a reason. Im like, hardly 1/5 through, C'mon.

As for Athesists, i worry for you. By not being able to identify and understand that the creation of life and the world is way beyond human comprehension, and yet still sticking to your own stubborn sets of beliefs, you have failed in your lives, sorry to say. Face it, you know that Life ISNT just all a coincidence.

Man is the master of his own destiny. Thats my conviction.

& this is definetly, without doubt, my truthful train of thought, my resolve. Period. If you think you would like to challenge me on something, or attempt to change my mindset on something that i have written in this entire "essay", please, be my guest. I have my e-mail address attached on this blog i believe.

24/7 rocking yer world,
Jiahuang

teh healthy life part 2

2008-03-11T01:19:00.008+08:00

Pursuing "The Healthy Life"

Day 2 : FAILURE

Guess my self discipline really sucks afterall. Couldnt resist the temptation anymore and bought a packet of fries WITH CHEESE from long johns during my school break today. Thats not all, ate some popcorn and nachos while watching Water Horse today. And drank some of my friend's soft drink. And stole a sip off my sister's F & N grape (bottled) she left in the fridge when i got home, hahahahaha.

And i didnt excercise a tiny weeny bit.
Man. I think im going to grow fat and get like 34234 pimples on my face soon.

Oh well i guess im really not cut out for this healthy diet thing. Imma just gonna eat what i want and be happy about it.

But ill *try* my best to contol my bad, unhealthy diet, though. Keyword : TRY

Talking about eating, it just suddenly dawns upon me how eating can be such a subjective term with totally different meanings when used in different parts of the world.

Some people eat just simply so to sustain life and not die from starvation. People in Africa and other third world countries are a good example to that.

Some people just enjoy eating and cant stop eating, they even make a job out of eating. Food Connoisseurs, Foodies and even Chefs are some people like that.

To that, we can see that different people can have totally different perceptions/mindsets towards eating:

A beggar in africa probably couldnt imagine that eating luxurious gourmet food; He/she cant even ensure his/her daily food.

A food connoisseur could probably never endure a day in the shoes of an african beggar (with hardly anything to eat). What a beggar eats might actually be considered unfit for human consumption to a high class food connoisseur. Just look at those grumpy people who complain about how "bad" their resturant food is. They dont know what "bad food" is for nuts.

Sure sure, when you pay a high price for food, you expect some really good food that suits your liking. Wow, for goodness sake, who on earth gave you the idea that just because you spent $$2343432234 on your meal you are sure to get food that 100% fits your taste? Did the resturant put a Gurantee or a "Satisfaction ensured" chop on their menu? No? Then dont whine.

If you dont like the food in that particular resturant, then dont go back there again, simple as that. Don't make a fuss out of it.

I would love to see people like that whos got all used to that rich&famous-high-flier life suddenly go broke and cant afford to spend money on good food anymore.

Getting back to the topic, by taking these 2 extremes of people from the opposite sides of the spectrum, it is obvious they could never crossover into each other's "scope", or "radius", you get what i mean.

"Ohh the world is sooo cruel!" Is that what you're thinking? Face it. Its the cold hard reality.

Well I guess different situations calls for different behaviours and attitudes.

The world is never fair and 100% impartial ; I guess that fact is here to stay.

Me? Im like caught in the middle. I think that eating to live makes sense, but somehow i find myself leaning towards the living to eat side more and more.

Live to eat or eat to live; You decide.

24/7 rockin yer world,
Jiahuang

The healthy life

2008-03-10T00:37:00.004+08:00

Operation "The Healthy Life"

Day 1 : SUCESS

Ok today was a good day. Although i woke up late, i managed to keep myself away from all kinds of junk food and chocolate for the whole. Wow its no easy feat i must say, took a hell lot of determination for me to do it. Almost succumbed to temptation sometime at night when my sister bought for me the fried squid heads back from paragon's old chang kee. Contemplated for almost an eternity and finally (unwillingly) refused the offer.

Went for a run today too. I was so tired after the run, i thought i was gonna die from asphyxia.
Did some weights..... wasent too long before i got damn shagged though. Tennis and drums seriously sap the strength out of me.

Oh btw, Happy holidays, too all you poly, JC, secondary school, primary school, kindergarden kids out there. Too bad my holidays just ended and its back to school for me tomorrow......... You little shits. :'(

Feel free to ask me out on any mass outings though. I would be more than glad to skip school to go out with you guys, hahahahahahahahaha.

Oh lookie its only 12.40 and im about to go sleep after i take a shower. Niceeee looks like im going to sleep before 2 am today (Yes its an achievement).

24/7 rockin yer world,
Jiahuang

I just realized i lead a very unhealthy lifestyle

2008-03-09T03:06:00.006+08:00

I just realized i lead a very unhealthy lifestyle

Yes its true. Chocolate is almost like my staple food. I need to form a new race called the chocaholics or something, let all the big chocolate eaters come together and stay in one country together, hahaha.

This reminds me, i just realized im out of chocolates at home. Time to go replenish stocks. =S Zomg i miss Royce cherry liquour chocolate. Someone needs to sponsor me one box of that everyday.

And ive really been eating alot of nuts recently too. Way too much than i should be eating. There was this big packet of "CAMEL Premium Quality Cholestrol Free Mixed Snacks" from new year's leftovers. Wala! i finished them in 2 days. Yes, by myself. =)

Well that probably explains the sudden outbreak of pimples on my face.

Ive been sleeping really late nowadays too, like 3am on average. Just look at the time of this post.

I *shall* take a healthy diet for at least a week now. No soft drinks, no fried food, no chocolate (this is probably the hardest to achieve) and no fast food. And i will not take little snacks of junk food, either.Oh, and ill excercise more this week, maybe run on alternate days, and do weights and push ups daily =D.

And ill sleep earlier, i hope. Sigh.

If ur reading this and you see me doing any of the things i listed above, please take a jackhammer and threathen to smash my head if i persist in doing whatever im doing, hahahaha.

I hope i have enough self discipline to abide by this plan. =9

Oh oh, ive been craving classical music recently, heres one from youtube, its Moonlight Sonata movement 3 played by Wilhelm Kempff, enjoy.

Okay its really late now, time to go sleep. Ciao.

24/7 rockin yer world,
Jiahuang

Nodame Cantabile

2008-03-08T01:25:00.004+08:00

Nodame Cantabile

-The name of the drama series that really touched my heart.

Recently ive been hooked onto this jap drama, called Nodame Cantabile. [NOTE: NOT THE ANIME VERSION].

Classical music was always my cup of tea, but this show has deepened my interest in classical music. Not just classical music too, this show inspires me a lot on music, allowing me to understand music better, as well as to enjoy music, in its purest state, as a form of art.

Basically the whole show revolves around this 2 very opposite people, their quirky romantic story, as well as their life experiences with music (they are both music students).

Megumi Noda, or “Nodame” is an extremely talented piano student at Momogaoka College of Music who prefers playing by ear rather than reading the music score. She is messy, disorganized, and loves to eat, sometimes mugging her friend's lunchbox.

Shinichi Chiaki, is Momogaoka’s top student. Born into a musical family, he is talented in piano and violin and has secret ambitions to become a conductor. An arrogant multi-lingual perfectionist who once lived abroad in the music capitals of the world as a young boy, he feels mired in Japan because of a childhood phobia. (phobia is disclosed so as to prevent spoilers).

Funny as hell, yet very touching at the same time. Excellent music. If ur a fan of piano, or ochestra music, or simply a fan of good music, this show is a must watch.
Im not afraid to share this too, i was literally moved to tears at while listening to some of the music in the show. If only i was able to play as well as the people who were playing the music pieces in the show.

On top of that, theres a extremely adorable girl in the show : Nodame.
Cute, innocent and with an exceptional flare for music, Nodame is talented with the piano, but yet considerably eccentric at the same time.

Maybe its because somehow or rather i feel that i was able to relate to some of her experiences in the drama in my life.

I swear, if i ever find a girl like Nodame in my life, i wiill most certainly marry her. hahahahahahahahahaha

Heres the first episode of the drama series, the first half of the first episode is a little boring, so bear with it:
http://www.crunchyroll.com/media-21585/Nodame-Cantabile-Live-Action-Episode-1.html

DISCLAIMER: ONCE YOU START WATCHING NODAME CANTABILE, YOU WILL GET HOOKED ONTO IT AND YOU CANT STOP. IF YOU DO NOT HAVE TIME TO SPARE, PLEASE DO NOT EVEN START WATCHING THE FIRST EPISODES, OR FACE THE CONSQEUENCES. WATCH AT YOUR OWN RISK, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

Here are some of my favourite music quotes:

"Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent."
Victor Hugo

"After silence that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music."
Aldous Huxley

"Music should strike fire from the heart of man, and bring tears from the eyes of woman."
Ludwig Van Beethoven

"Take a music bath once or twice a week for a few seasons, and you will find that it is to the soul what the water-bath is to the body."
Oliver Wendell Holmes

"If music be the food of love, play on."
Shakespeare, Twelfth Night

"Heard melodies are sweet, but those unheard are sweeter."
John Keats

"I have no pleasure in any man who despises music. It is no invention of ours: it is a gift of God. I place it next to theology. Satan hates music: he knows how it drives the evil spirit out of us."
Martin Luther

"Nothing separates the generations more than music. By the time a child is eight or nine, he has developed a passion for his own music that is even stronger than his passions for procrastination and weird clothes."
Bill Cosby

"For the introduction of a new kind of music must be shunned as imperiling the whole state; since styles of music are never disturbed without affecting the most important political institutions."
Plato

"Without music, life would be an error. The German imagines even God singing songs."
Friedrich Nietzsche

"A masterpiece of music is a masterpiece of life."
Jiahuang

"Music is like love ; Possible to do without with, but you know deep down you can't."
Jiahuang

24/7 rocking yer world,
Jiahuang

Someone just said i was emo

2008-03-04T00:33:00.004+08:00

Someone just called me emo.

Liek omg? Im emo?? how can i be emo man. ive got to be the happiest go luckiest guy on earth. Ok maybe i was feeling a little down(NOT EMO) the past few days. But GUESS WHAT? That wasent me. It was my little sister spouting rubbish, i swear (ok im a bad liar). Ok actually it was my evil cousin back from Jupiter. OH SHIT I JUST EXPOSED MY DARKEST SECRET. =O.

Please.... DONT tell anyone im from Jupiter..... NASA will hunt & keel me.

Dont worry guys! The real JH is back to kick your asses with his coolshit essays filled with zomg bombastic english.

Oh yeah, who wants a piece of me now? Call 98765262 to get served.

****Disclaimer, Not for people who cannot handle extreme loads of fun. If caller should receive any harm or die due to excessive fun, Jiahuang is not liable for any charges or damages done. You have been forewarned.****

Oh btw, thanks guys, all of you who showed concern directly or otherwise, thanks so much, i really appreciate it, you guys(& girls) are the shietz.

24/7 rocking yer world,
Jiahuang

Re: Less than slash three

2008-03-03T19:17:00.001+08:00

Re: Less than slash three

For those of you who didnt understand what "less than slash three" from my previous post meant, this is it, to satisfy your burning question needs:

lessthanslashthreelessthanslashthree
lessthanslashthreelessthanslashthree
lessthanslashthreelessthanslashthree
lessthanslashthreelessthanslashthree
lessthanslashthreelessthanslashthree
lessthanslashthreelessthanslashthree
lessthanslashthreelessthanslashthree
lessthanslashthreelessthanslashthree
lessthanslashthreelessthanslashthree

If you cant see anything, it just means you are colour blind to either red or light grey. Or both.

Cheers,
Jiahuang

less than slash three

2008-03-02T20:41:00.034+08:00

less than slash three

I guess nothing changed afterall.

They say time heals all wounds. Im beginning to doubt the truth in that statement now.

Close your eyes, take a few slow, deep breaths in bide to relieve some of the hurt etched and buried deep inside, but no no avail: it just comes back like a ghost haunting you recurringly.

Ive always thought "heartache" was just a figure of speech, but now i know its more than that; more than words, not just a mere metaphor; so much literally.

When it comes to affairs of the heart, its like even when you know the possible outcomes of falling in love with a wrong someone you're not supposed to be in love with, you still go ahead and do it. Its like your brain dosent control your actions anymore; your heart does.

Then again, since when was there Right and Wrong when it comes to love?
Love knows no boundaries.

Sigh, i wish i wasent such a sucker for love sometimes.

& i wonder whats up with the sudden influx of emotions in me nowadays

Btw, if you cant figure out what the title meant, please dont brood over it.

thrashed and Scattered;
disintegrated and Shattered;
pulverized and Shivered;
ruptured and Split;
crushed and Smashed;
mutilated and Severed;
fragmented and Shredded;
broken and Shattered

Tilt your head 90 degrees to the left and look at the set of phrases above, you will see a sad smiley

and the world keeps spinning round
my world's upside down
and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you and I wouldn't change a thing
no, you and I wouldn't change a thing
-Lifehouse, "Spin"

If you have to let it go
Walk away
-Funeral for a friend, "Walk Away"

When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
-Lifehouse, "Blind"

Cheers,
Jiahuang

Screw the world

2008-03-01T22:13:00.006+08:00

Screw the world. Hahaha.

Ok i suddenly feel like "addressing" some things. Or some people. (few might be an understatement)

Lets roll baby

First of all, if ur from ACS, and you think chinese is a stupid language, Screw you. ACS is called Anglo Chinese School for a reason. & whats up with ur "cool" lingo? Its not cool at all, get a life.

If you hate or dislike muse, Screw you. I think its retarded how some people can easily dismiss something as "bad" or "lousy" just because they dont know how to appreciate it.

If you bitch about me wearing short pants with long sleeved shirts and cuff links, screw you.

If you do not know how to play drums, and you think that playing drums is a piece of cake, or you dislike drums, or you think drums is a stupid instrument, screw you.

Oh, and people who play OTHER instruments who dislike drums, screw you x 3. So much for being a musician, yet insulting other music instruments.

To all sluts out there, screw you. Whoops sorry, i didnt mean it literally.

To people who think that they are 100% non conformists, screw you. I think i need not explain further.

To people who constantly try to show off to me that you are better than me in something, screw you. Im not really interested and i dont care what you do. Fullstop.

To people with like 423948274 friends on friendster / facebook or whatever "online community" shit, screw you. Come on, face it. Do you really think you have that many friends?

To people who read other people's blogs and actually get disturbed or angry, screw you. Come on. Give me a break. If you dont like whats being said, dont read it. Simple as that.

To paedophiles, screw you(rself) and stop picking on little kids, you sick shits.

Screw you people who have an issue with me typing with short sentences each ending with a fullstop. Or the way i talk. Or the walk i write. Go get some litreature sense.

Screw you, if you ever put me down more when im already feeling down.

Screw you, if you ever obtain enjoyment from another person's misery.

To people who constantly ask me if im attached, or whether i have a girlfriend, or why i dont have a girlfriend, or who i am interested in at the moment, screw you, and buzz off. Please mind your own business and respect other people's privacy. yes i do like a girl at the moment if you must know and i wont tell you who.

sometimes, love cannot be forced. & to love someone dosent neccessarily mean having to be with him/her. "to love, but not to hold."

People who are reading this and getting pissed off at the same time, Screw you, again. It just probably means you are guilty of something i said above.

Oh, oh, feeling angry? Got something to say? Guess what? Too bad. I deleted my tagboard. Go ahead and cry your ass off.

You can try to send me some spam smses or some hate mail, i wont really care though. Internet threats sooo scare me.

Oh yeah man im in a one hell of a jackass mood today. Piss me off and die. You have been warned.

Cheers,
Jiahuang

Surreality

2008-02-29T00:34:00.015+08:00

surreality
surreality
surreality

Today i invented a new word:

Surity
-Noun
1. The condition of being
unable to differentiate real from fantasy.
2. To be stuck in a dimension between surreality and reality.
3. Being unable to accept reality ; running from reality.

What is real, and what isnt? What really makes you alive?

Sometimes the line drawn between the surreality and reality is so thin we just fail to see it. (Thus we get into a state of Surity)

Indulging in fantasies and dreams was never a crime, but when the moment dawns for you to acknowledge reality and step your foot back down to earth, you know you gotta do it and theres no running away. Like they always say, "Resistance is futile".

Then again, reality can be be cold blooded, cruel, unfeeling, merciless and hurtful sometimes.

Face the music & live a life of dignity and pride;
Run from reality & live a cloak and dagger life,
The choice is yours.

Some people say "Ignorance is Bliss", i beg to differ.

"I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor"

- Lifehouse , "Blind"

yet another random post. im beginning to feel so proud of myself. smell the heavy sacarsm.

Cheers,
Jiahuang

its exam week

2008-02-27T23:19:00.005+08:00

Its exam week and im not freaking studying. Great.

Title says it all im so so pissed at myself i dont know what the hell im doing im really supposed to be studying for my major exam this week but somehow im not & dont ask me where the hell my motivation went and im nt sure myself why the heck im playing drums (and by the way all my drumsticks broke fuck it) going online chatting on msn eating running playing games slacking swimming shopping and doing everything under the sun but study im gonna fuck up my exams and fail and history is gonna repeat itself once again im in a bad moon if you havent noticedanyone who attempts to piss me off anytime now will get fucking screwd upside down by me and if you happen to piss me off without reading this message and get your ass whooped up then too bad blame it on ur own bad luck please excuse my vulgarities and this is one super long chained up nonsensical message that dosent seem to make much sense when i turn back to read it & if you havent noticed this sentence is synthetically wrong and is full of grammer and spelling and probably tense errors randomness for the win and for your information there are two hundred and thirty eight words in this sentence and one thousand two hundred and eighty seven characters including spaces and no punctuations except the one after this word.

Phew. I feel better after letting out so much.

Convinced you cant win me in randomness yet?

Have fun trying to read the screwd up sentence anyway.

Signing off,
Jiahuang

a man without drums

2008-02-23T01:41:00.021+08:00

Quotes on drums™

Okay, im really sick and tired from all the mugging (actually, by "all the mugging", i just meant 2 hours hahaha) for the exam i have on monday, so here i am to post some random stuffs.

“A drumset without snare is like a man without a wife ; it just dosent feel right without one.”

“A drumset without hi-hats is like a bird without wings ; cant take off without them.”

“A drumset without double bass pedals is like an athesist ; there isnt really anything wrong with him/her, but somehow something just feels missing.”

“A drumset without a bass drum is like a party without music ; just loses all the vibe, baby.”

“A drumset without cymbals is like a car without wheels ; aint going anywhere without them.”

“A drumset without toms is like a steak without sauce ; edible, but dosen't taste good.”

“A drumset without a drummer is like a hot chick ; sure is good to look at , but you know nothing's ever gonna come out of it if you dont make the first move.”

For reference citations, please quote :

Jomonic Howard aka JH(2008), "Quotes on drums" in Drumming for life, Department of Drum philosophy, Berklee College of Music, Boston.

Ohhh well thats all for now i guess, i might update when i get some more free time to spare. =]

Signing off,
Jiahuang

tipsy

2008-02-18T23:48:00.004+08:00

tinky winky, tipsy, lala, po

yeeeaaaaaahhhhhhh im typing this post after drinking this damn big glass of red wine. usually i dont feel anything after drinking red wine, but somehow this time it really got me, so im like..... kinda dizzy now. so pardon my sentence structure / tense / punctuation / spelling mistakes in this post. and if i happen not to make sense at any one point of time, skip that part.

okay what did i do in my past few days..... lets see..... i cant remember.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm......
shit my memory is really failing me.

oh right! on friday i had my (one day late) birthday party. played alot of drums and table tennis that totally got my arm shagged. and i remember nicole was late for my party so i had to go to coronation to fetch her together with kaster cause apparantly she didnt know how to get to my house (even though she came to do PW at my house sooooo many times before pffffffft). david the shortness totally got pwned by me in table tennis. and the table tennis ball (inside joke). and even dongkai pwned him. and omg we didnt get to play polar bear i totally forgot, damnit. =(

on saturday.......hmmm........ i forgot what i did in the morning and afternoon but somehow i was late for tennis (i think). didnt play well at all during tennis cause my hand was so super shagged from the party the previous day. and to add on to that, alex came to play with me after the lesson. like 2 more hours from 7-9 omg. well maybe it wasent a good idea for me to be "sporty" that day and played with all my might. cause my hand really felt like it was gonna drop off after that. and my right arm still kinda aches now, bah.

i met up with jolene on sunday to get my sista's birthday present. i know its kinda late her birthday is like first february. Lawl. oh and it was my dad's birthday. so we went to raffles city to eat at some jap resturant called kuriya or something. think its the third time or so ive been there but i still cant remember the name of it. oh, after dinner i remember i was feeling super bloated, i shall leave out the details. OH and i went to Topman at raffles city only to find out that this shirt i bought at $$43 at the exact same shop 2-3 weeks ago dropped to only freaking $$29. Not impressed, i bought another shirt at $$29 to "make up" for it. ahahahaha. impulse buys ftw.

and im gonna go back to that river island shop in raffles city to buy that sleeved shirt with tie for a hundred bux when i get more money.

and i still cant figure how i spent more than $$150 in less than a week.

and i need to get a cymbal stand ASAP.

and i totally cant remember what happened today although its the most recent. amazing.

thats all for now, laters

Signing off,
Jiahuang

Omg shagggggggged

2008-02-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

99.99% shagged

The past 3 days, including today, were one of the most tiring days in my life. & im so tired i cant even figure out whether the tense in the previous sentence is correct.

Oh well. i might update more after i actually get some rest and regain some consciousness.

Its monday

2008-02-11T21:57:00.000+08:00

Monday blues

i hate mondays. its so disturbing when you wake up and find out that you gotta go to school after a weekend break. in this case, it was after 4 days of CNY break. i was super tempted to just stay at home today and not go to school. guess i managed to curb my temptation this time. sometimes u just gotta shut the devil voice in you trying to tempt you to do bad stuff

today's school was pretty stupid. we practically did nothing at all the whole time, the teacher just talked a whole lot of crap for the lecture, and then gave us cake to eat. -_-

went to catch Ah Long Pte Ltd at plaza sing after school. pretty funny movie, its not everyday business u get to see Mark Lee act as a sissy and Fann Wong act like a gangster, lol.
if you're looking for a good laugh, be sure to catch this show =)

went home by bus after the movie. i never knew there was such a thing as bus 174e, which e stands for EXPRESS. i was standing at the bus stop, and when bus 174 came, i swear to god, i didnt see the e behind the 174, so i boarded it and what the heck it brought me all the way to jalan jurong kechil. or somewhere there. and the stupid driver refuses to let us (there was this other woman in the same situation as me) stop halfway through. so in the end i had to take another bus back. good waste of time and money

finally got home and set up my mic and speaker system in my room with the wires that i got from vincent earlier in school. yay now that i have a mic system in my room, we can finally have some decent jamming sessions in my house. lol.

guess ill go slack off somewhere else now, ciao

signing off,
jiahuang

Shaggedness

2008-02-10T14:50:00.000+08:00

Super Shaggedness

I just woke up.

Today marks the end of the 4 day CNY holidays, and i think like after eating so much bak gwa pineapple tarts ferrero rocher (for some reason everyone loves to buy this for new year goods) cuttlefish love letters potato chips and all kinds of assorted nuts, im gonna like fall sick soon. (its the same every work). Ironically, after eating all that CNY goodies for the past 3 days, i seem to have lost all my flu fever headache and sore throat that i had before CNY started hahaha. Either that or i just grew oblivious to all my sicknesses.

The first 2 days of CNY was pretty routine. Visiting, eating, collecting red packets , visiting, eating, collecting red packets. Talking about red packets, arrgh my "harvest" for this year is like reducing every year, and this year's drop apparantly was more significant. (& thats putting into consideration a few of my cousins got married last year) Hmm ok i dont really remember anything else that happened during the first 2 days, haha

I was as busy as a bee on the third day. & that might actually be an understatement. First thing in the morning i met up with zhixuan zhongxian shane xinyong and zeyi and we went around each other's houses to collect red packets woooootz. That took up pretty much the whole morning and half of the afternoon. Our last stop was at my house, oh! and my Zildjian K custom 16" Dark Crash i bought from ebay has finally arrived! woot!!!!11111oneone

Hahaha that was some random digression. and soooooooooooooo, after my friends left my house, my relatives from my mom's side came over to our house, and as usual, there was bad karaoke by the parents, as well as gambling with poker cards going on, although i didnt take part in this time's gambling session, haha

Well at about 6.00 me and my family, together with my relatives had to head to Forum shopping center in town to eat reunion dinner, ahhh crap i missed tennis for that. =(
The freaking dinner was so filling, i could hardly move after finishing the 7th course.
You see, the thing is, i had to go to my friend's house for his birthday after the dinner, and i was feeling so freaking bloated, sooo after the reunion dinner i just HAD to take a cab from town to his house. Ok whatever, it was just a bad excuse to cab. LOL

Ya so after eating i went to dongkai's house for his birthday. we gambled some to begin with, and i won like 30-40 bux in 30 mins hahahaha. then we went out for some supper at Macs (all i had was a macflurry cause i was still feeling damn full) and after that we went down to IRC to play some lan.

We got back to dongkai's house after that and then we watched some stupid lousy movies. and when i say lousy, i mean, like REALLY LOUSY. & i thought Darjeeling Limited was the worst movie ever on earth. Seems like there are many more crappy movies out there. Whatever, we were pretty much not focused on watching the movies anyway.

We didnt sleep through the night, walked to KAP macs for breakfast at about 6.30. And we talked alot about PJC gossip, lol. (guys do gossip sometimes too, FYI) We all went home after breakfast. I was feeling super shagged at that moment, but im damn proud of myself taking the bus home(and walking all the way from the busstop to my house. like imba far.) and not succumbing to waving my hand at those blue cars with those enticing green lights above them passing by me while i was waiting for my bus at the bus stop.

I finally reached home at 8am, and slept. Woke up at 1, ate lunch, and i think im going to go back to sleep now.

Signing off,
Jiahuang

sometimes i feel like such a wimp

2008-02-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel like such a wimp

i do, i really do. there are just so many things i wanna say, so many things i need to say, so many things i need to express, so many things i need to cry out loud about, but somehow i just cannot seem to put my thoughts into reality. especially when its about you, or rather, should i say, only when it's about you.

law of attraction states: like attracts like, & you attract into your life whatever you think about. your dominant thoughts will find a way to manifest; a self fufiling prophecy.

what i can safely say about this is, thinking isnt enough.

it really breaks my heart to see you all broken up inside. and i cant believe i cant even muster enough courage to put that across to you, and neither am i able to console you, or cheer you up when you are feeling low.

call it my lack of experience in dealing with matters as such or whatever. i feel useless sometimes. maybe i should go for a testosterone jab.

its ok if my feelings are not reciprocated,, but i feel sorry for myself. for not doing what im supposed to be doing for the person i feel for.

bah

2008-02-07T00:25:00.001+08:00

i feel worse now after taking a long cold shower. seems like i caught a flu too, on top of the headache and fever. bah.

im sick

2008-02-06T23:12:00.000+08:00

Im sick arrgh...... new year isnt going to be very jolly this year =/

Complicated

2008-02-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

let me board your train of thought

A girl's mind is more complicated than a jumbled up ten-thousand piece jigsaw puzzle & the way their minds are wired is probably likened to a whole bunch of confusedly interlaced and intertwisted threads all tangled up and knotted together. Trying to read their minds is probably harder than finding kryptonite. At least thats the way i think. Period.

Ohhhh well lemme update.

Nothing much yesterday. Woke up late and missed half the day of school. nuff said.
And my cymbal my mom bought for me from ebay still havent arrived. Damnit. ok that was random. whatever.

Today was my last day of school till the end of the chinese new year holidays wootz, & im feeling quite satisfied with how i performed in my BAF test today. expecting some good grades for that test. =)

After school vincent came over to my house to help me look at my mic system. Well crap, seems like i gotta get some new wires to connect my speakers to the amplifier system for the mics.

Then we watched some funny comedies on youtube. you can try to find some with these tags : "Achmed the dead terrorist", "Russel Peters" & "Bobby Lee". If you are looking for some brainless humour or comedies that dosent require thinking, go for "Bobby Lee", totally nosensical. But funny.

Soooooo after vincent left my house, quheng came over to shower after school. then we went over to cathy to catch Rambo 4 at 9.35. It was a M18 show, and we are like not 18 yet, so quheng proposed we sneaked in by pretending to be on the phone while letting them see our tickets. Which worked apparantly. Lol.

The movie itself was quite sweet. Quite a lot of gore. Alot of action. But somehow still not QUITE up to my expectations. Was expecting alot more solo-kill-all action from Rambo. Lol. Heres some stuff i have to say about the movie(hopefully not spoilers) :

Things i learnt after watching Rambo 4:

1. BOWS AND ARROWS > PISTOLS AND RIFLES
2. Pigs CAN eat humans
3. Burmese people are horny bastards and they care more about sex than anything else.
4. Burmese army officers are paedophiles.
5. US military insurgeons are useless idiots who only know how to brag. Most of them.
6. It is possible to rip out a person's throat by sheer brute force.
7. Rambo probably lost his abs which was why he was fully clothed throughout the show. & there probably wont be Rambo 6, time for the old man to retire

Thatttss about all folks , till next time!

Signing off,
Jiahuang

Wootzors

2008-02-03T21:22:00.000+08:00

Oh no! i just realized.. I DONT HAVE AN EXTRA CYMBAL STAND FOR MY K CUSTOM CYMBAL. Shit. Looks like i gotta go swee lee again to get one. and swee lee is like so damn far for me man geeeeeeeeeeeeeez. Bother.

Stupid ebay stuff takes forever to get here.

Yesterday was another super long and tiring day for me. First i had to go to school, then David the shortness came over to my house to "compose some songs". We didnt get a shit done. yup thats what you get for putting 2 super slackers and un productive people together. in the end we decided to play table tennis and the shortness just got totally pwned by my 1337zors table tennis skills. Oh, and he helped me lose 4 of my ping pong balls somehow, nicely done.

After that i went for "tennis" at JCC. I put the inverted commas on "tennis" because i didnt exactly get to play at all. Blame the bad weather. stupid rain. No, no, im not referring to my dog.

Oh well soooooooooo i didnt get to play tennis, and decided to change up into my casual clothes without taking a shower anyways. and wearing a long sleeved shirt suddenly makes me realize the huge disparity between the muscles on my left arm and right arm. cuz' when i push my sleeves up, the sleeves on my right arm is able to sustain in that position while the sleeves on my left arm keeps falling down and i need to keep pushing them up, if you get what i mean. Yup so in the end i met up with jolene and she passed me this necklace that my friend bought from her website (so im liek the middleman), and then we went to JE to eat stuffed crust pizza @ pizzahut woot.

As for today, nothing much really happened. As usual i played some drums in the afternoon but got soon interrupted and had to stop cause my sis was going to have tuition. Sucks. So i went to slack a bit and TRIED to study for my BAF test on tuesday. Notice the keyword : TRIED.

So later in the afternoon i went to meet up with Tze Wei Guo (tze wei and wei guo) at bugis and we were supposedly trying to get some new year clothes. but apparantly bugis street was so damn crowded we couldnt really see much, much less to say try anything. Soo we got out of bugis street empty handed & decided to head to TOPMAN, where i was trying to look for a sleeved shirt, but the prices of sleeved shirts there are so steep. so after window shopping for a bit, we got out of there empty handed anyways.

We went to BHG departmental store after that, and i bought this Louis Chavlon sleeved shirt (no not Louis Vuitton) for $ 42 (the usual price was $60 but there was 30% discount wootzors). I had a hard time deciding whether to get the red striped one or the black striped one. And when i finally decided on the black striped one, the saleslady told me that they do not have the size for me on the black striped shirt. So i had to get the red striped one instead. Ahhhhhh. talk about fate.

Soooooo thats about all for now cya.

Signing off,
Jiahuang

Hello cyberworld, first time blogger talking

2008-02-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

"Hello cyberworld, first time blogger talking"

Yup thats right, this is my first blog post ever, woooooooootzors. I made it a cool MUSE(my favourite band) theme, and i created and edited the graphics all by myself (feeling proud of myself right now =) )

Oh, and i know its kinda LATE to actually just START blogging, but i guess i needed to find somewhere to rant about everything in my life afterall. lawl. I was intending to make this into a drumming / muse related blog, but i guess there arent people who actually understand drumming stuffs out there, and not many people who appreciate MUSE in Singapore either. What a pity. Oh well.... sooooo i scraped the idea and made this a normal blog!

First of all, SOMEONE NEEDS TO TEACH ME HOW TO ADD THE AUTHOR'S NAME AT THE BOTTOM OF EVERY POST (cuz there are 2 authors in this blog & i dont want people to get mixed up). oh and TEACH ME HOW TO MAKE THE TITLE SHOW TOO.

Next up, people, if you want your link to ur blog added to mine, please leave your name, as well as the URL to ur blog. (it might take some time, since im kinda n00b at this)

Hmm, Ok lets talk about my day today.

Today was a looong day for me. I had school from 9-5 and school was as boring as ever.

Bahhhh i was literally sleeping through the last 2 hours of school.( the last module of the day was on accounting. and accounting.... is like totally.... not my cup of tea.)

After school i had to rush home to celebrate my sister's birthday! And i gave her my maplestory account that i used to have for her birthday! hahaaa Ok. Ill admit it. The truth is i had forgotten to get her a present. LOL. What a bad brother i am eh loool. I swear ill get her a real present though..... i mean a real one(liek maybe another maplestory account).

So for my sister's birthday, my mom made steamboat for our dinner. And crap i overate. And im super bloated now. Like beyond bloated, inflated. Like a balloon. Well and the best part is, IMMEDIATELY after the steamboat, i had to eat my sister's birthday cake which was this super sinful and chocolatey chocolate cake. Usually i would ask for 2nd or even third servings of chocolate cake, but not today.

Well after that i went to play UNO with my sis for a while until she decided to go to sleep, and then i came here!

Speaking of birthdays.... mine is coming pretty soon too! Woots! So i decided to set up this "Guideline", in case any of you guys intend to give me a present:

Disclaimer: The following guide below is only meant for comical purposes, and not meant to be taken seriously. Follow it at your own Risk.

**Note: If the present you intend to give is a K custom Cymbal please skip directly to step 7.**

Step 1:
Show Jiahuang your present.

Step 2:
Tell him you're giving it to him, he will reject it, telling you he can't accept it.

Step 3:
Try again, this time he will tell you that the gift is too valuable for him to accept.

Step 4:
Try again, he will tell you that you're too kind.

Step 5:
Try again, he will apologize for forgetting to get you a present on your previous birthday (if he did)

Step 6:
Try again, he will promise you a present on your next birthday this time. (please take into account he has severe short term memory)

Step 7:
Tell him you sincerly want him to have the present, this time he will humbly accept it =)

Yup thats about the entire " guide". Lol sheeet im seriously bored. Oh and my mom bought me this Zildjian 16" K Custom Dark Crash Cymbal from Ebay for my birthday present! WOOOOT! i cant wait to get it, its currently shipping over from the US =D.

Thats about all for today. What an amazingly long blog(IMO). I shall go and bum around now.

& i havent gotten over you
Signing off,
Jiahuang